IowaLaura
Tomorrow is the big day!
Apr 27, 2009
I am home alone, waiting for the magnesium citrate to kick in, wondering if I should be afraid or not. This is such a huge decision. Do I want to be on a diet the rest of my life? I love food - planning it, cooking it, eating it, sharing it. What if I regret this later? There is no going back. I visit the web site several times a day, looking at the before and after photos hoping to find myself somewhere on these pages – the self I want to be. I read your blogs and postings looking for answers and not finding them. I read all of the information and statistics waiting for someone to tell me the right thing to do - To eliminate the doubts and fears. It doesn't happen. I know in my heart this is what I need to do. I want to be healthy and able to play again. I want to smile and laugh on the inside and not just on the outside. I can do this - It is going to be hard but I know I can. I just HAVE TO. I can't fail again and survivie it. I must make this happen at all costs.