iwant2sing
Hi family
I have been fat most of my life.
I've lost 60-80 pounds at least three times in my life.
I have lost weight more than that but not as much.
I know how I look and feel to be smaller and baby it feels so damn good.
I have always been the type to go on a diet and excercise but than bam it comes right back.
I have asthma,severe allergies to food and environement,excema and high cholesterol.
I hate being 5ft2 and damn near 250 pounds.
It's aggrevating and depressing knowing how you could live with the weight off!
I am not a sweet eater do to allergies but I overindulge on the foods I can eat.
Specifically meat.
Sugery was never ever my first option!
I thought that having surgery meant you were a failure.
Just a fatty who cannot control herself do to lack of willpower.
My surgeon assured me that was not the case.
I take topical and internal steroids for my illness and I know that has hindered my weightloss as well.
I just want to look and feel like I did 100 pounds ago.
I was actually approved for gastric bypass two years ago but I chickened out because I didn't have any real support.
I was so sad and depressed at that time also.
I was 252 pounds than and my knees and legs were trying to give out on my little frame.
I'm 240 pounds now which is not a huge difference.
This time around I am opting for the lapband sugery.
Dr. nagle assured me that I was a great candidate for the procedure.
I started my consulting two months ago.
I'm waiting on my approval as we speak.
God please let them approve me.
Send me an angel
I promise I will use this tool to the best of my ability!
Ok so it's june4th
Tomorrow I see the nutritionist for my second nutrition class.
She is submitting my papers to aetna for approval after this.
Please pray for me family.
I'm under some stress and I'm truly trying to seek peace in some form or fashion.
When you're independent who do you depend on?
THE CREATOR!
