jenpam
Like many people on this site, I have been overweight my whole life. Well I thought I was overweight but now when I look back at pictures of myself as a child or in high school or college- I think I looked great- or at least a lot better than I do now! I have been slowly gaining weight my whole life. What pushed me over the edge was when I had my daughter in June 2006. I did pretty well with the pregnancy- not gaining too much- I think about 35 pounds total. When she was born I quickly lost all the weight, but then when she stopped breastfeeding at four months- the weight came right back on. I swear my body has an internal measure as I gained right back every pound to get to my top weight of my pregnancy. So I now weigh as much as I did when I was ready to give birth!
Even though I was overweight my whole life, I don't feel like it held me back so much. I still had a relatively good body image and could find clothes that I liked and men who appreciated how I looked. But now! Now I can barely wear size 20 and have to buy women's size clothes. I no longer feel attractive. And I have no energy. All I can do is go to work, come home and take care of my daughter until she goes to sleep at 8pm and then I am ready for bed too!
I want to lose weight before my daughter realizes that I am overweight. I don't want her to think she is destined to be overweight like her mom. I just don't want her to think about food issues at all. And I want to have energy to show her that it is important to have an active lifestyle and take care of yourself.
I can't wait to take control of my life. To not be embarrased to meet up with old friends. To flirt again. To enjoy shopping again. To eat well and have energy. To be a good role model for my daughter. To live to my full potential!
