Hello! It's been a long time.

Oct 04, 2009

Hello everyone!
I am sorry that it has been so long since I posted a blog update. I am doing great and had my labs come back. Everything seems fine (my PCP and surgeon say they are).

I am doing great and feeling better and better everyday. I got a new pair of clothes (Don't want to buy to much, because I am still loosing weight) and I am feeling more confident. I have always been confident but when I was at my highest right before I was getting ready to go to Brazil my confident was going down the drain. That was a scary part of my life, I always tell my friends that the last thing they needed was to be their own worst enemy but then there I was becoming afraid of what people would say to and about me. But I am glad I still never "beat" myself up emotionally. I knew that wouldn't help anything. I just became  more held back and not wanting to socialize because it was becoming physically and emotionally painful.

I am still getting more confident as the days go by and I am started to remember why I shouldn't let peoples dirty looks and words get me down. So things have gotten better. But when I did go through that I felt sorry for people how feel like that all the time......I couldn't live with that hurt.......I was never a person who let peoples words or stares hurt me but when I did for once in my life, O boy was it hard.

I am so grateful for my DS and not once regretted it. I take my vitamins everyday and I drink my water and eat my protein. I must admit I struggle with giving in to carbs from time to time but its nothing to bad and I try my best to do better next time. 

I've been helping my sisters start eating better, they know that what is good for me is most likely not to good for them (such as bacon and what not) and they are ok with that and for once are listening to what I suggest for them to try since I am the one who looks at all the nutrition facts on EVERYTHING lol. And I even got my sisters slowed down on soda! Almost to the point of them choosing water over a soda! Yay! Lol. 

They play out a lot more too. My poor 11 year old sister seems to be going through what I went through. Where I was a very active child and ate pretty good and did diets and everything at such a young age but still packed on the pounds   everything we try doesn't seem to help her keep off weight......I know and feel her pain......she is quite tall for her age but she weighs maybe more them 250 pounds and is about 5'3 or 5'4 :/ She tries so hard to be really active and shes become my nutrition buddy but she still cant loose any weight.....-sigh- I don't know what to do. I don't want her to ever get to where I was! But her body just keeps holding on to all the weight......

I hope shes not like me and that she grows out of this, and becomes healthy and happier. I know she tries so hard....but people don't believe she does and she gets frustrated and hurt......Its hard.

Well I'm not to sure what else to say, but overall I am OK. Just living life. Hope everyone is doing good! 

-Jessy

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