Jobsies
I've been heavy since childhood. I wish I could figure out the trigger and wonder if I ever will. My childhood sucked -- an abusive mother who was also overweight. I can remember my first bout with WW and losing weight (it wasn't until I recently sent for my school records that I saw I had lost 100 pounds just before JR high)...I gained it all back the following year -- something that shocked the nutritionist. It was she that said, something must have happened to allow a child to be heavy enough to lose 100 pounds and then gain it back in a two year period.
I've been struggling since..about four years ago, I lost 100 pounds again with WW..and of course gained it back. It's so very hard..I wish I was normal. And that is the reason I am fighting to have surgery. I want to be normal. I am so tired of the comments, stairs, and attitudes of society. I just want to blend in with everyone else and be a normal weight. I don't need to be 135 pounds..but if I could just be normal...I'd be thrilled.
I dream of the day that I can look back at this and realize...I made it.
