Bev D.
Looking back on it all.... I just don't think I was ever as large in size as I was in mind. Of course, that's all different now. My size has caught up with my mind - - and in a way I'm not surprised this time has come.
Daughter of a career military man, born in England, raised all over the world....I breezed through high school and college - lots of friends, pleasantly plump. Theatre major in college - always got the juicy character roles, never the sweet ingenue. But, not a problem.
In the years following college, the weight crept up and up - and went over the 300 mark about the time I hit 30. I went into attack mode and with dedication to Weight Watchers, walking and going to the gym - lost 153 lbs.....and put it back on, plus more over the next 15 years.
And here I am... all caught up with me.... Age makes it harder now. Metabolism close to a standstill. Ankles swollen & throbbing most of the time. No clothes to fit, avoiding much of life as a fear of my own size has overtaken me.
Bless my loving husband and incredibily smart and energetic 10 year old daughter - - and a host of friends who knew me then, now and will be there as this next chapter starts.
It will most likely be a May surgery for me... Spring - time of renewal. I am scared, hopeful, desperate, excited, skeptical and most of all.....ready to try and recapture some life before I turn 50 this summer.
The reading I have done on this site is so positive and uplifting. What an incredible community - and what an enlightenment to see that I am not alone in this sad struggle.
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