KandyLicious
9 years later after surgery....
Sep 27, 2014
When I started the process to have the surgery done I was clueless at what I was getting into... I had a great job with an incredible medical insurance so everyone at work was getting this surgery to loose weight done.
I was happy the way I looked and was "happy" being "obese" but I had a very active toddler that I wasn't able to keep up with and made the decision to look into the surgery and see if it was right for me. I asked several co-workers that had the surgery but at the beginning it was "taboo" no one wanted to admit or share their experience so I decided to look into it on my own but I didn't know that on that first appointment I was going to get schedule right away for surgery. I had heard how difficult it was for everyone to get approved for this surgery so I thought I had time during the process to figure out if it was the right desicion for me, little did I know I had a "better" insurance an awesome doctor and everything worked out smoothly. I was at the right weight, at 5'6 I weighted 365 pounds and I didn't have a clue because I had instead of a negative body figure, when I looked in the mirror I only saw this beautiful woman.
Anyway, a year to the date after I had my surgery I found I was pregnant with my second child. I was shocked because it was really hard to get pregnant after the first baby but after loosing about 135 pounds I guess my body was ready, when I first found out I was pregnant my weight was 235 pounds and after having the baby my weight was 214 pounds but my baby ended up in NICU, so after a month running from hospital to home I was at my lowest weight 200 pounds. Five years after the surgery I was at 235 again, I had gained weight but when I had the baby was at 218 pounds but went back after a year or so to 245 pounds.
I got really sick, had pain all over my body... Muscle and joint pain and the doctors couldn't figure out what was the problem after being out on disability for about a year they diagnosed me with fibromyalgia and rheumatoid arthritis. Now I can barely walk, have to go out on a wheelchair and my current weight is 186.8 pounds, the lowest I have ever been since having the surgery. Now I see all this skin sagging and flapping and I wish I was 365 pounds again. I am almost positive that my insurance would pay for the removing of extra skin surgery but the question is am I healthy enough to get it done. I have never hated my body like I hate it now.
I love using strapless dress, bathing suits, going to the pool and beaches but this year there was no way I was going to show my saggy thigs and flapping arms. I hate surgeries, I thought them useless when I use to see my skinny co-workers and sister going for tummy tucks, boob jobs and liposuction but now after seeing my body after loosing 178 pounds and I am disgusted, I feel like wearing turtle necks and long sleeves even in the summer.
