Not such a great day

Mar 10, 2010

Today was not such a great day.  I had my first major slip in 10 days.  After a pretty crappy day at work, I rushed home to cook supper for my daughter along with my brother and his 2 kids.  We had a nice visit.  It is Kara's birthday on Monday so they gave her a present today - a Nintendo DS.  After everyone left and Kara was in bed, I made myself a plate of nacho chips with cheese.  I wasn't even really hungry and I didn't even enjoy them.  By the time I was done I was so disgusted I just wanted to make myself throw up.  I think the only thing that stopped me from doing that is that I know it will lead to even bigger problems than the ones I have now.  Before this I have been eating super healthy and have been able to get through the hungry days.  I am disappointed in myself and discouraged!  To make it worse all I keep thinking is "well, I've already screwed up today so what I else can I have before I start back at it tomorrow".

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME???????

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