Kimberly W.

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The wow moments keep comming.  I was told from work that the baggie look I have been sporting is so not working anymore (my job is so sweet..loll) 

I was going to go and get jeans from Cathrines ( a full figured cloth store that has really larger sizes) and my DH said lets just keep it cheep and go to walmart. the reason is I am going to not be able to wear them soon anyway. I told him I never can find my size of 34x in walmart. dont be silly  He laughed at me and said to humor him. Okay so he put me in a dressing room, grabed a pair of jeans and a shirt.. THEY FIT   I looked at the size.. 22-24!!!! and they were only 3 dollars on sale....Not only did I go down 10 sizes  but I was able to buy SALE CLOTHING. This was the most amazing thing I have done yet. Life is good. now I cant wait till I dont have to shop in the full sizes anymore. 
This year keeps getting better and better.

Yea!!! I finally did it. I hit below 300 lbs. I have not done this since I was in my twentys... I did not belive it could happen. I feel so much lighter and able to move so much better. it is not perfiect yet but so much more. I forget what it was like to go camping... stay up at a fire all night... and not die for three days doing it. 

But now I have another problem I did not really exspect. My husband is getting so cranky. It is like I want to do things and he does not. I was kind of afraid he would not keep up but I did not know he would get missable about it. Just this morning he snapped at me because I said my typical.."okay" in a conversation. said why do you always interupt me. Talking is my job and what i do. if this is going to bother him after 5 years of marrage...  I am not sure what to do. Plus I want to do more sca events and get out more. he is kind of resisting. I dont know what to do about it. I guess we will figure it out.

Hello everone,
Do you know it takes forever to upload photes to this. I was able to upload some to my profile but if you want to see more let me know. 

I just came back from a SCA camping trip in Lumbton MS. It was the first time I had an blast at it. I was able to walk all over the grounds (Many...many times) I even left my camper husband in the wake some of the time. I was able to attend the partys and stay up late. We had fires every night and I was able to take alot of the classes. 

I was able to meet some great people. we had this fantastic camp going and partys everynight. I will say that I really cant say what happened at this partys but it was a blast. I was able to shop for dresses off the rack!!!! wow.... that so rocked. I have a new greek garb I am so in love with. since when did I become a cloths hound.
I am so thankful for this surgery now. everytime I ever went before it was a horror show. I couldnt do anything but sit at camp and get sick for a couple of months after worth. this time I was an active memember. (even got flirted with... . I was so not used to that I had to ask the gentlemen what exactly he ment by was I free that night)  

If ever you doubt that this surgery works... trust me it does. even if I dont lose another pound... it was all worth it if but for the freedom to do what I did this week. I am so looking foward to more. 

Now I am worried about my husband. He is starting to have trouble keeping up with me. I noticed it when we were walking around the camp ground and in the store. this could become a problem. I wish he would have this surgery to. I dont want to lose him in any way. His blood pressure has to be going up and with him trying to keep up with me it is becoming inpossable. I am not sure what to do but pray some kind of mircale happens with him. he is such a stubbon guy. sweet.. but stubborn.

Well,,, I am going to an sca event called Gulf wars. it will be camping out doors in Lumbton MS for a week. I got to admit I am scared. the last time I went here I was sick for a week and could not do anything. this year I went out of my way to take extra vitamins and walk. I am so hoping it will be fun this year. I wanted to be below 300 lbs but I did not make it. I am close so I wont beat myself up for it. Just wanted  to make an update before I forget.

I am able to walk alot better now and dont feel like my lungs are colapsing everytime I walk and talk. it is a good feeling. but I wish I could lose faster. isnt that always the case. will see. this week should be good for me. I so need to get away from the job and computers. well have fun everyone.

I finally hit the 100 lbs mark. felt like it took forever. I am told I actually did good with being just slightly over 6 months but I want it gone now. being patcent was never one of my strong points. the good news is I am moving so much better now. I just wish this cold would go away. but I guess some thing never change. like how I get sick every winter. no matter what. oh well at least I dont feel like I cant get out of bed anymore.

Okay it has been over 4 months and I have not kept this jornal up. But thanks to a great girl who designed my website I feel the insperation to do it again.

Lets start with this has been both as hard and not as hard of a trip for me. The hard part is I was not the type to always get sick before. Used to be I could eat anything and be fine. Now I find my stomach is being difficalt. does not like anything that even thinks of having fiber or fried in any way. Plus has to be chewed almost to baby food. 

The first couple of months you kind of get sick of liquid. but to be honest I found out there are blessing to this surgery to. for example I could not eat my favorite food before chicken a la king ( I know sick) but now it has over 15 grams of protien and for some reason does not bother me any more. talk about kewl. Plus I was a cheese nut before this operation. This still is the case. The only difference now is because I eat so little I am getting into good cheeses.. not just any junk I get in the store.

I am also starting to learn about spicing and here is the kicker.. before this surgery I did not cook. I almost made it a life motto not to. Now I am learning how to cook and about how to make spices to make it taste better. seems I am focusing more on food then ever before. weird huh.

Okay I am back and this is the first time I got to the computer. I will try to tell everything but alot of it is still fuzzy.

Wed : 07/25. My husband woke me up at 5am and we got ready to go. I dont hardly remember getting dress. everything was like in a dream state. We got to the Hospital and all of a sudden I was not in control anymore. The got a weelchair for me and took me to the waiting room. Luckly there was other there getting the surgery to so I started doing my famous rambling to anyone. ( I always do that when I am scared. I have been told I am very funny when I do this. I just think it is panic)

Went into preop and got weighted. OH MY GOD.. Here I am thinking I am 365 lbs per every scale I went on. The hospital scale read 417. OH MY GOD. How the heck did that happen.. If I was going to chicken out of this surgery not any more. I was all go at that point. and very freaked out.

I was second to last for the sugery but that was okay. I was very calm and had a great husband with me. we talked.. read books and chilled. when they took me into the set up room that is when things started to get fuzzy. they put in an iv using a numming thing for my arm. Now that was nice. did not even hurt for the IV. wow. they also gave me a "do not care drug" as they call it. bascly it was to calm you down before surgery. I though I was pretty calm but it was done for all people.

After that I dont remember a thing other then wakeing up wednesday night. My husband said the first thing I said was hello honey... did I live? and had my hand already on the demral button. I remeber having the tube in my nose and an IV not in my arm anymore but in my neck (never seen that before) they made me walk that night but I was so doped up bairly felt any pain.

Thursday 07//26: I woke up and was Able to walk and function. Thank god for those dental stick that you can put water in your mouth with. they were great. Here is the worst thing that happen though... I got my pieod during Surgery. They said that is normal but it made it hard to go to the bathroom and keep clean. Again.. great husband...

They took the cathitor out and about 6 hours later realized I was not going to the bathroom at all. I said I tried but there was nothing to come out. I was on saline solution so there should have been. They did a bladder test and I was tell the truth. there was less than 100 mlgram of fluid. So they did a blood test. I was 3 pints low. So no going home on friday. 

Friday 07/27: I was so week I felt like a kitten. not really in pain just week. they brought me down to the exray room to do my leak test. everything was fine. Just could not stand up real long. then they took out the nose tube ( that was a piece of cake. dont anyone tell you it is hard. it is so not) and I was allowed water. boy did that water taste good. 

I started my blood transfusions that afternoon. I was hooked up to so many machines but that was okay. it did not hurt at all. just made walking that day inpossable. My mom stayed with me the whole day as well as thursday night. It was so nice that the hospital let her stay.

Friday night My husband stayed with me. I was so glad because I was starting to go to the bathroom and he so had to help me. Plus the company was great.
Sat.07/28 : took the cath out and waited for me to go to the bathroom. took about 2 hours and alot of water. But finally it happened and I was allowed to go home at 12noon. My uncle and family was all home as well as my animals. I finally was able to go to sleep.. it was great. I had and still have gas pains ( not that bad) but it is going away. 
Sunday 07/29: was able to get out of the recliner by my self this mornig.. yea... starting to get stronger. thank God. Well will see how all this will play out now. 

Okay it is 7am and I am sitting realizing that tommorrow is the Day. I cant belive how un neaved I am. Part of me really wants this. the other part is ... well really wants this to be over. I cant even imagine what is it going to be like. what is it going to be like to not have to think about what I am eating all the time. To not worry about how it is going to blow up my legs. to be alowed to say.. no I really cant eat that. to not want to really eat that.. To be able to move again. walk again.. breath normal again. to get rid of all those stupid machines that cook my house every night. To be able to sleep normal.  

For this freedom I just have to be brave for one week and trust my opinion of this doctor I chose. ( thought I got to admit the office staff left me neaouvous) 

I am so hoping I did not make a major mistake with all of this. but most of me knows this is the best thing to do.

Oh and for history stake... of course this is the weekend the whole family is comming up.. figures right. ugh!! loll

Okay almost time to go home. 1week 3 days to S day.. 2 days to the dreaded 40th birthday. I am so scared of this sugery. I know it will be good. I also know that if I ever want kids I have to do this now. plus not being able to move is killing me. I am such an active person. I also hate the drain I am on my Husband and family.  But I wish this would be over with. I cant seem to think about anything else. 
I just hope I dont act like a complete baby after the sugery. loll

Okay. So I slacked. I have been actually fighting this since 2005 but the desaster with testing/insurance/office assistance/ and the fax machines ( dont ask) is now over. I have been officially aproved as of yesterday. So in my opinion the real chalenges lay ahead. ( if you ask my family it is just the middle. )
I have to make a decision now. I was just told from my surgent he is going to do open, Not the lap I thought he would do. That it would be better for me and less dangouse. This goes against everything I ever heard. but his reasoning is sound. So for the first time in my life I am going to have blind faith. gulp.  Now it is just waiting for my job to call me back to see when I can schedule this.