1 week away from surgery

Jan 28, 2013

I am just 1 week away from getting my sleeve and I am so excited and nervous. It feels like it was so long ago I started this whole process. I ran around and completed everything needed to be done before insurance approval within 2 weeks. Went to all my support group meetings and went to see the nutritionist every month. I really felt like surgery was years away and wanted it now. Now it's aweek away aand I'm starting to get really nervous. I am scared that I may not make it out of surgery, that my kids will be left without a mom. Though I know I am doing this so they will have me around longer and healthier. I'm worried that I will fail, that I won't lose the desired weight and this entire journey will be for not. I am also fearful that if I do lose the weight my husband will be insecure with our relationship or not want to keep up with my more active lifestyle. I am extremely excited to be able to run around after my 16 month old son. To be able to wear normal clothes and to look nice in a bathing suit. To fit comfortably in a beach chair or a movie seat. Mostly to not feel hungry all the time!!! I am suffering with this pre-op diet. I am a week in and today is a really bad day with wanting to eat. It is very hard to cook breakfast, lunch and dinner for your son and not be able to eat what your cooking and smelling. Ugh!!! I will not cheat in fear of an enlarged liver and the surgeon not being able to perform the surgery. I keep telling myself now I only have a week to go! :)

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