Mona
2 years...unbelieveable!
Feb 11, 2009
It's hard for me to fathom that it's been 2 whole years since I was reborn in to the person I was always meant to be. My whole life I felt that my weight and obsession with food really held me back. Don't get me wrong, I participated fully in life and did all those things we do (3 college degrees, friends, dating, marriage, kids, job) but I struggled. My weight bothered me so much that I always said if I found a genie in a bottle and was granted 3 wishes, one of them would be that I would weigh 120 pounds for the rest of my life, regardless of what I ate. I made that disclaimer because I was so crazy with my eating and felt there was no way I could actually be in control, so it would have to be by magic that I would be able to lose weight and maintain the loss. I guess the VSG is like magic, then. =DThe funny part is that I didn't realize how much of a problem I had until I didn't. I honestly thought everyone was like me in that they were hungry all of the time. From the moment I woke up until I fell asleep at night I was thinking about food, what I had just eaten, what I was going to eat, what I wanted to eat...you get the picture. I thought that people who were a normal weight were just better at fighting the battle than me, and that made me feel bad about myself. Why am I so much weaker than everyone else I wondered. Once I had 80% of my stomach and lots of my ghrelin removed I realized that not everyone feels hungry all of the time and WOW what a relief THAT is. It is so much easier to make good, nutritious choices when your body isn't screaming feed me 24/7.
This has been a journey of self discovery for me. I thought that once I got my weight under control that my life would be so much better, and it is...but it didn't solve ALL of my problems. I've said it before and I'll say it again - skinny, rich & beautiful people have problems, too. If you don't believe me, just look at the headlines (OMG can you believe about Chris and Rihanna?)
I have not lost any of my good friends, which goes to prove that they are indeed GOOD friends, but can't say the same for lesser aquaintances and also for my younger sister. Not that she and I had a stellar relationship before - she's always somewhat viewed me as the enemy and looked for a reason to be unhappy with me. I think it's sad when you can't be happy for someone who has improved their lot in life, but I cannot concern myself with her insecurities. I have also had some friendly acquaintances pull away. One of the things that losing weight has done for me has given me the freedom/confidence to walk away from negative people & unhealthy relationships. I used to be very concerned if someone didn't like me and it would consume me. Now I don't worry about it so much; I just figure it's their loss and you can't expect everyone to like you so I focus on those who do. Life is too short.
I want to thank each and every one of you for your love and support along the way. It's been a bumpy road at times and I always had a place to turn to get answers, support, a pat on the back, a hug or kick in the a**. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have been as successful, but am certain it wouldn't have been nearly as fun without all of you.
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About Me
21.7
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Surgery
02/16/2007
Surgery Date
Surgeon
Jan 17, 2007
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