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Yep, it's been four years and the weight is still off.  I've maintained and only allowed myself to fluxuate 3 -4 pounds.  I still weight daily. Yes, I know we are not supposed to but it's worked for me.  Life is GREAT!  I'm enjoying having horses again and being able to do what I want.   Thank you Dr. Jawad and staff, you are terrific!!

A lesson to take nothing for granted! 

A year out and I've made goal and BOOM!  A bleeding ulcer!  Friday night I was awakened by a feeling like I was going to throw up and sure enough I spit up a little in the toilet and it was pure blood.  Called my husband cause I was a little freaked out and while he was coming I vomited pure blood and clots into the sink. Couldn't make the toilet.  It seemed like an enormous amount.  Boy was that un-nerving. 

Well, as it so happened,I had been scheduled for an upper endoscopy and a colonoscopy last Thursday to see what was causing me pain in my side, not stomach.  But because of TD Fay it was postponed.  Then Friday nite I end up in the hospital with a bleeding ulcer. It was fixed by putting clamps on the blood vessel through an endoscope.  The clamps are supposed to fall off within a couple of months.  Neat!  It's a bummer to be on liquids again but it shouldn't be too long.  I hope.  

My red blood cell count is being monitored to see if I will need a transfusion.  If it falls below 9 I will. This evening it hit 9 again, for the third time.  But hopefully it will go up again. 

I am still thrilled I had the surgery and this will not change my mind.  I just need to get a handle on what is causing the ulcers and how to prevent them.  Very important to not have this happen again.

 I can honestly say that all my dreams for wls results have come true. I am10 pounds shy of  my goal, 

I have started horseback riding again, I have enough energy to share, I can go anywhere and sit in any chair with room to spare, and I can buy clothes at any store.  I even tucked a blouse in today and wore a belt for the first time in 30 years.  I feel pretty!  Wow  Best of all, I don't feel like people are staring at the fat lady.  

I thank the Lord daily for his blessings and will forever strive to live the best life I can.  I appreciate my family more each day for all the support and encouragement they have given me over the past year.

Life is not only good, it's GREAT!

I'm a grandmother!!  Yeah!  Hailey was born on May 1st.  She is wonderful.  So exciting.  And I have no fear about being able to keep up with her now that I'm smaller.  I still can't believe my reflection in the mirror.  I find myself looking twice to see if it's really me.  My only problem is that that woman is so old and wrinkled.  When did that happen?  I now relate to the book, "I feel bad about my neck!"  I think that it the name of it.  

And the wings under my arms.  Oh, I must have them fixed or give them a name cause they definately have a life of their own. LOL  

I am riding horses again, and loving it.  Never felt like I could put a horse through my weight before. And now, I'm enjoying riding and somewhat surprised that I remember what to do.  Life is good.

My poor husband isn't used to all this energy and is having trouble even thinking about keeping up.  I do get lonely because of it but it doesn't slow me down though.

Well, there is the update to my blog/diary for now.  Life is good.

I feel like my old self!  Thank you Dr. Jawad and staff!  Everyday some one at work will comment on how good I look and that every day I seem smaller.  What a self-esteem builder.  I no longer feel invisable.  Yes, I have 40 pounds to go, but this feeling is wonderful.  My own children are so proud of me.  

Now, I have to say I still mourn food at times. (crunch in particular)  But, the results are so worth it.  I love having my energy back and being able to sit in a chair and have room to put my legs up.  Oh, heck, just to be able to bend my legs is something to celebrate.  And crossing my legs without them falling off my knees or sticking straight out!  Wow!!  I also love being able to tie my shoes without holding my breath.

The excess skin is also okay.  I mean, it's there for a very good reason.  Yes, I can't wait to get rid of it and complete my weight loss journey.  Then on to the life long battle of keeping it off.  

I'm one happy camper right now. I just pray everything goes well in the future.

I'm 6 months out and 85 pounds down. Can't believe it but so happy I made this decision.  Head hunger still is the hardest part, besides getting in all the protein and water.  But buying size 16s and xl shirts are much better on the ego than 28s and 3x's.  I actually enjoyed shopping for the first time in 20 years.  Wow!  Yes, still in the womans department because of my thighs but that's okay.  I don't like the bumpys to show and the shirts need to be long enough to cover my tummy. :)  I'm going to have to go to the gym now because I've hit a plateau and I need to jump start my body.   I haven't really exercised other than walking and keeping busy so it's till to start.  I had a knee replacement two years ago and my doc doesn't want me biking to keep the stress off my other knee.  Want's be to use the eliptical trainer instead so I'll have to go the gym for that.  Swimming is the best for me, but our pool is too cold.  I'll have to use the gym for that also.  A New Year and a new start.  I hope to have a tummy tuck in June so I really want to get the next 60 pounds going.  I'm sure I can do it.  It's June or the next year because I'm a teacher and won't be able to take 6 or 8 weeks off to recover at anyother time.  Now that's motivation.  The idea of keeping this tummy flap is - well, not a pleasant thought.    It's not that bad, to tell the truth, but it is a reminder of my bigger days.  My thighs are probably going to stay giggley cause I don't think I want to do that surgery.  I might do my arms though.  We will see.  Well, thanks for listening, dear diary!  Happy New Year

Boy, I have to work on handling stress better. I find I return to old habits and want to eat.  Of course I can't eat like I used to or anywhere near it but I still want to.  All I could think of in the hospital (Ed's knee replacement) was food and the cafeteria down stairs.  When will that stop??????  Ed went to rehab yesterday, Thanksgiving Day, while I cooked for 10 more.  I thought about food alot but didn't snack at all.  I did eat too much at dinner but it was about a tenth of what i ate last year.  Although I'm sure I didn't gain weight I'm sure I didn't loose any.  I guess that's all right.  :)  
I woke up with a very sore throat during the night and really haven't felt very well today.  It's 1:30 in the afternoon and I haven't gotten dressed, not like me at all.  I don't think I'll go see Ed today because of the throat thing.  Wouldn't want him to deal with this also.  
Well, thanks for listening.  Happy Thanksgiving!

I am so happy with my weight loss today.  I'm not losing quickly but I'm losing.  That's what counts.  I have now lost more than I have to go. Yeah!  I can't wait till I'm under 200, that will be a day to celebrate!  My husband and kids are sooooooooooo proud of me.  It's a good day!

Wow, what a month.  I had the Endoscopy with Dr. Shebani and I did have an ulcer.  By the way, he was wonderful.  I just had to get him talking to see his bedside manner.  He was very compassionate and listened to what I was saying.  I have a lot of respect for him and am happy to have him as part of the team.  There had been some problems communicating from the ER with the office but Kevin came through and although all the tests that should have been done, were not done, I'm better now and that is what counts.  I should have had the Endoscopy the day I was at the ER but---miscommunication reigned.  Cost my husband and I three extra days off of work each, but I'm better.  Oh, well, that's life.  The good news is the stall in weight loss has ended, probably caused by the inflammation in my system from the ulcer, and I'm down to 228 from 293.  65 pounds in 3 1/2 months. I'm thrilled.  I bought a size 18w for my daughter's wedding on the 3rd of November.  3 months ago it would have been a 28.  wow  Thank you Dr. J an d team.  Now I'd like to be under 200 for Christmas.  Hope I can do it, but if i can't anything will do.  I'm so happy with my decision to have this surgery, anything is okay.   My family is so proud of me.  My kids are so different towards me.  They always adored me, but now they are proud of me too.  What a feeling.
I can't seem to get to the support meetings but I read the boards everyday and feel apart of the group.  There is a lot of wonderful information passed there and I'm grateful for everyone that posts.

Lisette called today and I have been scheduled for an Endoscope with Dr. S. on Thursday.  I have an appointment with him on Wednesday and then staying over night because we live so far.  I'll have the endoscope in the morning.  I hope he can give me the results right away so I don't have to go back again.  I would think he should be able to since he is the one looking down into my stomach.  I just wish this pain would go away.  It's constant and then if I put anything in it spasms.  yuck!  Wish me luck.