Lisa C.
Good and bad
Aug 28, 2015
So as I lay here I realized that a lot has changed in the last few years. I did get a cat, two actually. I adopted a brother and sister pair named Desi and Lucy. They are my babies. I moved from New Jersey to Colorado in 2008. I loved living in Colorado even though my family was all back home. I met some amazing people that I call my friends who became my family. Somewhere on this journey, I fell off track with losing weight. I feel like a failure some days because I have gained my weight back despite having gastric bypass. That was in 2007. I originally lost about 130 pounds. I have gained 80 back which is frustrating. But I have to get myself re motivated. I will, one day. In 2011 I met a wonderful man on a dating website. I love him so much and he loves me for me. We got married on September 21, 2013. He is such an amazing man, hard working, and the love of my life. In late August 2014 my job transferred me to Washington. They say it's always raining here but I found that to not be true this year. Lol. It has been so dry but I love it here anyway. Except for the fires burning. Pray for our firefighters. Anyway, I want to get back on track and finally lose this weight. I will do this. One day at a time.
Sitting here thinking
Jan 08, 2009
Well.. I am sitting here thinking.. which probably isnt a good thing for me to do. I will admit I am a little depressed and I dont' really know why. Well, I do although I don't want to admit it.. So here it is. I found out that my ex boyfriends new girlfriend had a baby girl today. I guess what upsets me about it is that I don't have any kids and it doesnt look like I am going to. I am not saying that I wish I was still with him, because I really dont. He used me and stole from me and I am so much better off without him in my life. But I keep thinking, why not me? Why can't I find a companion who wants me for me, not for what I can do for them? Is it so hard to find a mate? I want someone who will go to church with me (maybe) but mostly someone to spend a little time with. Im not asking for all the time, but even someone to share my day with. I guess some days more than others I have been getting home sick. I miss my niece and nephews so much. Maybe I need to get a cat or something.. lol.. Seriously though, I want a man to share my life with. I am a good person. Or I try to be. I have gotten better (i hope) since I moved out here. But maybe not. Maybe I am not a good person and thats why I am still alone. But there are a lot of people who absolutely SUCK and they are still with someone. I know that I need patience and to work on myself and be happy with myself before I can truly commit to someone else. But I keep asking, what is wrong with me? I know I seem to be on a rant, and I apologize. I am trying to get back on track with the weight loss.. I have been going to the gym. I started going back this week. I didnt go yesterday because of church and today (wasn't feeling good).. But I will go tomorrow and probably saturday. My goal is to go 4 days a week. The first night I walked for 15 min on the treadmill plus did leg crunch things (with weights) and some arm lifts (with weights). Then Tuesday I did 20 minutes on the treadmill and the leg and arm things again. I seriously need to lose about 60 pounds before May. My mother and my father are getting married so I have to go home for a visit (no, not to each other)... But I want people to see a difference in me (with the weight).. If I lose the 60 pounds it will put me around 200 (maybe a little less).. Considering I started out at 380 I think that would be good. But its such a struggle for me. Especially when I am a little depressed, I love to eat.. lol.. I guess Im human after all.. lol.. Anyway, I have a goal and I have to meet it. I can't have people making fun of me because I stopped losing weight. I still haven't figured out what I want to get down to. My "ideal" weight is 130 but who knows. Maybe I will stop at 150. I dont remember ever being under 220 so I guess time will tell. Anyway, thanks for reading this and I hope I dont depress you too much.. lol.. I hope you all are okay (whoever reads this that is).. lol.. I stopped emailing a lot of people since I went off track because I am embarrassed. I hate being fat and I dont want to hear about it anymore.. I am sick of the fat jokes. I am tired of people around me making fun of other heavy people and not expecting me to get a little offended.. I know sometimes they aren't talking about me, but since I am heavy, I know what its like. Okay. so you can say that I am stuck on being fat.. lol.. My mind is only focused on one thing.. This sucks.. lol... Anyway, let me know what you think.. I know I shouldnt complain. I know of people that are a lot worse off than me. I actually have it good compared to some. I have a job, an apartment. I am surviving.. But is it enough? Anyway.. i hope to hear from anyone who wants to comment.. Again I apologize if I depressed anyone.. lol.. Talk to you later.. Lisa
Just a quick update
May 11, 2008
Ticker
Jan 14, 2008
WOW!!! Its the end of 2007
Dec 27, 2007
Just a quick update
Nov 14, 2007
Weight Chart
Sep 19, 2007
1 week post op- 9/18/07- 300 lbs- 17 lbs lost
2 week post op- 9/25/07- 295 lbs- 22 lbs lost
3 week post op- 10/2/07- 290 lbs- 27 lbs lost
4 week post op- 10/9/07- 283 lbs- 34 lbs lost
8 week post op- 11/12/07-272 lbs- 45 lbs lost
10 week post op- 11/24/07- 262 lbs- 55 lbs lost
14 week post op- 12/29/07- 258 lbs- 59 lbs lost
I can eat.. woo hoo... lol
Sep 18, 2007
im home
Sep 14, 2007
Tomorrow is the day
Sep 11, 2007