Happy New Years!

Jan 01, 2010

I can only hope it is a better year, this one went out with a ~flop~  

short recap of the year, backwards to whenever I get tired of typing.   

I did not have a date for New Years Eve, but I had a really great time at the AFFA party.   I am still single and trying to figure out why.  I just don't understand  ~  

I have been talking with a man, real nice guy, we met, we've talked, have much in common, he's something else. He chaperoned  a party NYE and even tho I hinted, he didn't invite me.  So I went out alone.

I got robbed Christmas Eve morning, about 6:30 am., they threw a brick through my window and I didn't hear it and they made out with whatever they wanted.  Even trepassed against me in my own bedroom.  They did not touch me, but they got TOO close to me!  My purse was hanging on my bedpost, I asleep in my bed.  I feel violated.  I didn't hear them, because when I crash at night, I sleep hard the 1st couple 3 hours,  I still take med's to stay asleep at night.  My diagnosis years ago was hypersomniac with Sleep Apnea, yeah my mind don't stay shut off at night, so I take meds.    The thief took my laptop, two digital camera's, the ONLY present I had under the tree for my son :( ,  some VHS tapes, ~weird with DVD's right here~ went upstair came in my room, took my cell phone, my purse and my penny jar.      I then notice my Christmas ham was gone too! I kind of figured that, that's why I looked in there.  rotten bastards

5 days before Christmas Eve, some ass broke out my car window, probably the same idiot.  Didn't get anything, just another thing for me to fix.

I've been fighting with insurance again, I think I'm just not going to work outside my home any more, causes me too much grief in my SS .. my disability won't go away.    I'm pleading insanity.. life is making me insane.   ROFL   
Ok back to my insurance, I had ended my employment back in June, because I could not breathe - my disabilty - COPD, was kicking my butt  Too hot to work, no AC, too dusty, too  much mold, made it a hard work enviroment for myself. 
Well on top of not being able to breathe, I could not afford most my medicines, so here I was rock and hard place again.  I ended up having to re-apply for insurance, get denied,(sept 09) request a state hearing (jan 10) have the caseworker call and ask why I requested the hearing.  Then she blows it out by saying, well actually I made the mistake, you should have never lost your insurance.  Ok 7 months without most my meds and no Dr visits.  Except once, I went to the ER because my sciata went out so bad, I couldn't walk... I have that issue also, don't help I'm 50 and arthritis is kicking my butt now.   I probably need another one of those calcium injections, for bone density.. but it hurts.

I don't get out much, with not working and it getting chillier, homebody mode.. dangerous mode, alone, lonely and it's cold outside.  TELLING SELF DO NOT EAT! 

My battery on my motorcycle fried out the night before the NW Ohio Toy Run, it's a big ride, but I like it and it makes me feel ~oh so dang proud of my "brothers n sista's"!   I didn't get to ride... so I pouted and then went over a few hours later and helped feed the masses that came back to the Speedway after the Toy Run.    I heard there was over 2000 bikes this year! woop.. oh how purty :)

I am a 5 yr old POST-OP!   I've gained a few lbs, but it comes and goes, I need to exercise more again,  .. see hernia below.

I caught up with an old friend, hadn't seen her in years, she knew my voice.. but not my body! aha still some I can fool... lol  

I rode as much as I could over the summer, even went away for about 6 days on it .. sweet ..   I have had a wonderful season of riding, I like my friends, old and new alike, I like this part of my life.. which is most of my life.. "if I have to explain it to you, you just wouldn't understand."

I so love to ride my motorcycle.. I'd rather put gas in my tank and just ride, than waste what little $ I have on something that won't do my soul good after the fact.  Riding is great therapy!!    I ride with Women In The Wind, Toledo, Ohio Chapter.  Awesome group of ladies.  I ride with Redbear & Pokey most often.

I still need a hernia operation, think I'm going to have that re-checked here very soon.  It's hard to work my abs, makes my back hurt, crunching the hernia.   I bloat really super fast when I eat and then I feel full within a few bites and I really do not eat nearly enough still at this far out from my surgery,  I mean like good proteins.  My tummy just can't handle it. 

ok that's skipping through the last couple few months.. I'm tired, it's late.  Happy New Years!

nite and God bless

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