Meremere
dysmorphia?
Jul 09, 2011
It's been 109 days since surgery. I'm down 65lbs. My period is no longer accompanied by horrible cramps. I am down 4 pant sizes.
Yet I'm finding myself very depressed and at a bit of a loss.
I'm wondering if it's the thing they called dysmorphia.
I find myself becoming more and more reclusive.
I have been doing things compulsively.
I find myself avoiding people and checking the scale twice, three times a day......like I'm waiting for permission to start living my life again.
I don't want to have any more challenges. I don't want any more struggles. I can't talk to my boyfriend about it. I don't want to talk to anyone about it. I"m taking it out on my boss, my friends........Why can't I just be happy?
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Yet I'm finding myself very depressed and at a bit of a loss.
I'm wondering if it's the thing they called dysmorphia.
I find myself becoming more and more reclusive.
I have been doing things compulsively.
I find myself avoiding people and checking the scale twice, three times a day......like I'm waiting for permission to start living my life again.
I don't want to have any more challenges. I don't want any more struggles. I can't talk to my boyfriend about it. I don't want to talk to anyone about it. I"m taking it out on my boss, my friends........Why can't I just be happy?
About Me
Mississauga, ON
Location
28.5
BMI
Surgery
03/24/2011
Surgery Date
Nov 28, 2010
Member Since
