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OMG!!  I just realized I had NOT done my Monthly BLOG!! What in the world!!  This is something I must do for myself, if for no other reason but to vent, to say thanks and just know that the support here is awesome and I would not have come this far without support.  NO one can go through this sort of thing alone.  I think it is critical to success.  I feel like it has been one of my pillars.  So again Thanks guys.  And to all of my new friends who have upcoming surgery or just had surgery, hang on in there....life does get better, I was there just a few months ago...you will turn the corner...follow the MD's instructions and get over the HUMP!  Its is a HUMP for sure!! BUT keep  your EYE on the prize!!  

I am feeling better now...It is strange for me, I feel like my process has been a little "backwards"..what I mean is I kind of rebelled in the beginning...or maybe I think really, my mind had not wrapped around the lifestyle changes of what surgery brought.  I was still trying to eat , sneak, bite, lick, force in foods here and there with hopes that I could just get a "taste" of the foods that I was probably still addicted to...(my carbs)....  now that I look back ..I just didnt quite process  it all and do what I was supposed to do.  I did barely enough exercise, not enough protien, carbs here and there...and my weight loss has been slow...but thats okay...believe me I am still happy..Im not complaining..anyone who knows me knows that I am a person that learns and keeps it moving...

I am filled with joy today as I type because I have learned from this behavior, traded the Atkins shakes for the "real" Syntrax nectar protien , ( I even keep a container at work!) and I am on the ball Yall!  Weight is droppping again, I am exercising like I am supposed to and I have talked to my doctor about all of this.  We talked about what was working and what it would take for me to do MORE positive behavior...No negative talk at all!  I love my surgeon... When he asked me what was I doing when things were going WELL and loosing..I could destinctly remember adhering to the plan and being well stocked with the protein powder.  The Atkins shakes had too little protein and I didnt realize I needed to step my game up big time! 
Also, as I didnt have protein at work, I was back at the snack machine...well I nipped that right in the bud and brought my Syntrax to work..

So anyhoo...Im happy that the scale is moving again and Im now down to 234!!!  Down 6 pounds this month and Im working hard to get these 4 pounds off this month so that I can achieve ten pounds off for the month of March Baby!!!

Feels so good to be back on the right track.....  Miss and love yalll.....peace......On my way to goal....see ya next Month...

Michelle....

PS:  Feels so good to go shopping and be going down in sizes...sizes I havent worn since HIGH SCHOOL!  I bought a size MEDIUM SHIRT , AND 18 JEANS YESTERDAY!  WHOO HOO... I STARTED OUT IN A 3X SHIRT AND SZ 26 JEANS.....FEELS GOOD.....

Hey everyone ,

Its Michelle--feeling like its time again to jot down my feelings for the month...time to check in!!  Hope you guyz are enjoying your New Year thus far..so far I am.........somewhat.  You see I am happy with my weight loss...I am hovering around 242-244, at my 3 month stall right now.  I was so happy to hit 240 at the end of  January, I just KNEW that February I would be knocking out the 230's -- NOT!!  Sigh,  so here's the stall , at the end of the month I had my (monthly--excuse me) which led me back to my old habits of u no it CHOCOLATE!  So that just put me back in Carb hell!  So here it is the second week of Feb and Im just NOW weaning myself off of them and refocusing again.  Back on the protein BANDWAGON!     All the while , I never stopped exercising!  Thank goodness!  BUT if I had kept eating right I know I would have met my goal of 235 by my sons birthday on 2/19/10!  LIFE!  Trying not to be hard on myself and look forward...but boy is it frustrating sometimes, ...and I am the most positive person I know!! LOL :) 

SO guys ,, please send some love and encouragement my way.... I am reaching out because I need it. ... I do keep in touch with my 3 sleeve sistas  and I am going to ask them to make me MORE accountable.  I feel like I shouldnt feel its ok to eat carbs when I havent met my goal yet...am I being too hard on myself...?  Im halfway to goal and pray to be at 170 by my birthday in August.  I know this is realistic and doable...I don't want to be skinny, I like my curves!  Just trimmer and healthier!

Feel free to share...I need something or someone to help me see the big picture again...all and all I am enjoying the journey , I Have more SELF LOVE THAN EVER BEFORE and have even begun to somewhat date again.  It feels nice.....

One love,
Michelle  

Happy New Year everyone!!

So glad to see all of my OH buddies, we have made it into the NEW YEAR!  Just wanted to post my monthly blog and just let out some of these happy feelings!  Well I am 9 weeks post op and down a total of  29 pounds since surgery!  Total of  57 down since March!  Down from 304# to 247#!!!! Feeling great and from what I hear and see, looking great too!  LOL  Still exercising on the treadmill, up to a 12 minute mile!  Alternating incline workouts with interval workouts.   My body is toned --I have a small waist and my curvy hips are showing!  I am pleased with the slow progress --I want to loose slowly to avoid loose skin....I am making strides  and look forward to loosing another 50 pounds this year!  I have finally embraced my newfound "singleness" and am LOVING IT!!!    Lots of complements and a couple of phone numbers..lol....  Looking forward to Hawaii in JULY!!!!

Boy , time sure flies when you are having fun!  Feeling great, looosing slowly....
I normally try to write a monthy blog, and just realized I did not write anything for the month of December! Boy oh boy!  Well,   Wednesday, I went in for my 6 weeks post op followup with my surgeon.  Was released to a regular diet and am down to 257#.  I am feeling good, weighed in  at 276# on the day of surgery so just about 20 pounds in 6 weeks.   Not a huge amount, but I will take it!  My surgeon was expecting more but I told him honestly I have a sweet tooth and I know it.  I have no problem exercising, drinking water, drinking shakes or anything else.  I have a sedentary job and every day between 2-4 pm, my mind tells me to GO GET CHOCOLATE!   WTF?  SO , its still a demon that I am fighting , what can I say?  I admit to it and struggling with it on a daily basis.  I dont know if it is stress, boredom, hunger or what ever, but It sure has a grip on me!   So I will continue to take my vitamins, walk daily, drink/ eat  my protien and water and fight this carb monster....pray for me!! 

Just keeping notes on myself...but it is good, so why not share?  Just wanted to say today is my first week postop and I am down a whopping....9 LBS!  Whoo hoo!  Loving this ....Still on clears, moved up from one shake a day and this week my goal is to get a am and pm shake in....so anywhoo...have a great week...smooches!!

Michelle

PS:  Im walking the treadmill 30 min at least 5x per week.......  267#

Well ladies and gentlemen,

I am up in the wee hours of the morning preparing to leave for the hospital shortly.  Just wanted to take some time to say thanks to all of you, my friends of OH.   I know that this is only the beginning, but I would NOT have made it thus far without your awesome support.  In my times of change, confusion or frustration, you guys have been there.  So please guys, scoot on over because I am NEXT on the loosers bench!  I thank GOD for this second chance and am looking forward to a bright and healthier future!   See you Thursday!!!!  I will check my email on my phone if you wish to communicate with me:  feel free to email me at [email protected].

GOD bless,
Michelle

Ok ladies and gents,

OCTOBER!!!!
ITS MY TURN!!!   My time is here....today is the first day of my pre op diet...so far so good... i am sticking to the plan with the help of an appetite suppressant.   The MD knows I am taking them.  It would be difficult to restrict my intake this quickly without some help.  So he said the first week I  will have cravings so hey..:)  I hope to stop taking them next week and really detox my body and be cleansed for the second week and be OH SO READY  for Tuesday Oct 27th...I can hardly wait yall!  I am so excited I could scream!

Any tips , positive vibes, or love would be greatly recieved.  What to take to the hospital? I have no clue? 


PS
I had a weird dream last night that  I chickened out at the last minute and decided..HEY.. I could loose weight on my own...!Im am just going to DIET AND EXERCISE...SHOOT....meanwhile...
while attending an event , I ran into my aunt Marie, (who weighs over 300 pounds for real) had the surgery and looked absolutely marvelous, it drove me to jealousy!  WOW.....? crazy...

Just an FYI...saw the surgeon today...will be sleeved on 10/27 and NOT 10/21......sigh....im sooo ready..its a process, i know..i know... 

Yessir!!!  I am doing the happy dance this morning!!!  Just got a call that my SLEEVE has been approved!!!! 

Whooo hooo...... anybody wanna dance with me???????????

Seeing the surgeon for preop on 10/7 and looking at surgery date of 10/21!!!  

Thanks in advance for your prayers!!!!!

Appreciate all the support over the past 6 months!

Well guys,

I am feeling the need to write my monthly blog....so here goes...

First and formost, my divorce proceedings are complete and it is finalized.
I have recieved my papers and am moving forward with my new life~!!
Cannot wait to see what the future has in store for me, I KNOW IT WILL BE BETTER THAN EVER BEFORE!

Second,
Weight is still the same.  Between vacation and a leg injury  things have slowed down for me.
But thanks be to GOD  , surgery is closer than ever and I am so excited to get this tool to help me along the way!!!
I am so ready for it and plan on getting back on my diet and exercise plan this month to prepare me for what is to come.
Over the past 6 months , with the preop diet, I have lost almost  30 pounds in this process, and it gives me a peek of what is to come!

Third,
After next week I would have completed all the necessary testing , and consultations, to get my records ready for submission for authorization.  I'm almost certain everything is covered and am positive I will have a date in the next few weeks.  I am guessing I will be ready for surgery the first or second week in OCTOBER.

I finally decided on the Gastric Sleeve.  Initially I was not sure whether to go the RNY or lapband route.
Neither of them sat well with me, but the surgeon I have chosen and the sleeve makes me feel at ease  { of what I need and the goals I need to meet,}   with as little complication as possible.  So I am glad to be at peace with that.

So , here goes, September.  My month of change.  Feels good to know a year from now I will be able to enjoy the many things I look forward to doing in life.  Roller coasters,  more airplane rides/increased travel,  ability to buy clothes from almost anywhere I go and most of all feeling comfortable in a swimsuit and going on my first cruise without hesitation! 

SWEET!

Until next month my OH friends,  thanks for listening.

ONE LOVE!