MONSE1279
MY STORY BEGINS WHEN I MARRIED MY HUSBAND ON APRIL FOOLS 2000...AT THE TIME I WAS A BIG GIRL BUT NOT AS BIG AS I WAS A FEW MONTHS AGO....ABOUT A YEAR LATER I HAD A DAUGHTER...HER NAME WAS SABRINA...UNFORTUNATELY, 2 MONTHS LATER IN OCTOBER...SHE PASSED AWAY IN HER SLEEP...THAT IS THE DAY I KNOW I STOPPED LOVING MYSELF...I WAS SO SADDENED BY HER LOSS ALL I DID TO HURT MYSELF WAS EAT EAT AND EAT SOMEMORE...I FELT THAT I DIDNT DO ENOUGH TO SAVE HER AND I WOULD ALWAYS FEEL GUILTY ABOUT HER DEATH...EVEN THOUGH IT WAS THE HOSPITALS FAULT THAT DIDNT GIVE US PROPER TREATMENT ...SHE DEVELOPED SEIZUREZ FROM THE BIRTHING PROCESS AND I KNOW I COULDNT DO ANYTHING TO STOP HER FROM PASSING BUT I JUST MISSED HER SO MUCH....
BECAUSE OF MY DEPRESSION I GAINED MORE THAN 150 POUNDS OVER A 6 YEAR PERIOD AND I DIDNT CARE...BUT I FINALLY FELT LAST YEAR THAT I HAD TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT MY WEIGHT...I TALKED TO MY NEW DOCTOR WHO FINALLY APPROVED OF MY WLS...THE PREVIOUS ONE DIDNT WANT ME TO HAVE IT...BUT AT THIS POINT I WAS WEIGHING 420+ POUNDS...I COULDNT DO MUCH AND I HAD A HARD TIME WALKING LONG DISTANCES.....I COULDNT BREATHE AND I DEVELOPED SLEEP APNEA AND HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE....
I WAS HAPPY TO HAVE STARTED MY WLS EDUCATION CLASSES AND DONT REGRET TAKING THEM....MY SISTER ALSO HELPED ME BY TAKING ME WALKING AND KEEPING ME ON TRACK...SHE WAS LIKE MY PERSONAL TRAINER...I LOVE HER SO MUCH ...AND ALSO MY NIECE DARLA...WHO ALSO HELPED ME WALK,,,
FINALLY, IN NOVEMBER I WAS SCHEDULED FOR MY SURGERY (11-27-07)...BEFORE MY SURGERY I LOST 45 LBS ON MY OWN.. AND UP TO TODAY I HAVE LOST 80+ POUNDS....THANKS TO MY DR. .....DR. SUH AT CROWN SURGICAL GROUP.. I AM SO THANKFUL TO HIM AND GOD FOR GIVING ME A NEW CHANCE T O FEEL GREAT ABOUT MY SELF AND TO LOVE LIFE AGAIN.....AS FOR MY DAUGHTER SABRINA MY LITTLE ANGEL ...
.I KNOW SHE WAS THERE FOR ME AT SURGERY AND EVERYWHERE I GO....BECAUSE I HEARD HER VOICE AT THE HOSPITAL....SHE WHISPERED IN MY EAR SOMETHING I WILL NEVER FORGET... SHE SAID..."ARE YOU OKAY MOMMY?" I JUST SMILED LOOKED AND I SAID TO HER ..."YES, I AM ....I KNOW ITS YOU SABRINA.." AND I CRIED FOR JOY THAT SHE HAD BEEN THERE ALL ALONG WITH ME...
GOD BLESS ALL THOSE PEOPLE IN BARIATRICS WHO GIVE US OBESE PATIENTS A SECOND CHANCE TO LIFE...
AMEN
WITH LOVE,
MONSE
