mrsr95
back to work
Nov 03, 2009
well, 4 weeks have gone by.............so hard to believe. i'm so glad the pain is all gone and the tenderness. i still get a bit tired in the afternoon but thats ok.
today is day 2 back in the office. great responses from co-workers. now that i have to wear "nice " clothes. i see and feel the difference. 4 weeks of old sweatpants are over.
i cut my hair and blew it dry and ironed it (thanks to my husbands help) and makeup sure does make a difference in how i feel when i walk in the door.
i feel lighter when i walk and people say i look rested and happier. thats great feedback.
thats it for now...........off to a meeting
frustrated
Oct 28, 2009
i lost 30 pounds lickety split.........now nothing. am i eating too much? not enough? wrong choices? ugh!
i'm going to post this on the main board, too. someone should know something.......
first time throwing up
Oct 21, 2009
the surgeon on call thought it was constipation but after a few hours of this ..........i finally threw up. i felt a lot better. my stomach was very tender. it didnt even like sips of water. i didn't have a protein drink for 12 hours because of this
so, yesterday at my follow up with the surgeon. he mentioned it was most likely too much food too soon. the whole was getting blocked. GEESH!!! now i know.............so, i'm afraid to eat. not sure how often to eat. so, i'm sticking to liquids more because its something i know. i have noticed that greek yogurts going down are ok as is cottage cheese. tried chicken last night and my stomach was not too happy
i guess this will be a guessing game until i get into the groove of it
Visit to the ER yesterday
Oct 13, 2009
i still am having difficulties taking a deep breathe because my left ribs really hurt and i get winded if i'm talking too much. So, after 2 days of pain...........i thought it would be best to call the surgeon just in case. There were 3 possibilities
1. muscular
2. skeletal
3. blood clot in the lung
i had a CT Scan and it showed NO BLOOD CLOT. that was exciting to hear....i didnt realize how much fear i have with those words. anyway, the ER guy thought that it most likely was skeletal since they had to push down a lot on my ribs to maneuver. something i didn't think of ......
last week, when the stomach pain was so great, it was my primary pain..........now since its decreasing more and more.......my secondary pain on my side is becoming the primary. that is why i didn't notice it before.........so the professionals tell me. makes sense........
damn food network
Oct 11, 2009
i'm daydreaming about food. stuff i loved and stuff i didnt.
after church, went to Vons....my first outing. found some cream soups and those little danactive drinkable yogurts. those were "cute" and took care of my sweet tooth. this was good for about 4 hours...........now, i'm daydreaming again. i want sushi!
i'm sure its one of the many phases and that i'm not alone...........but boy, do tacos sound good right now
THIS TOO SHALL PASS.........it has to.
BM
Oct 10, 2009
i was getting a bit worried. NOW, the problem is that i'm sick of this liquid diet but i have 8 days to go
ugh!
its 5:40 am
Oct 04, 2009
now i'm dressed and ready to leave...............all emtions are going thru my head
all done in a few hours and then i can focus on recovering and healing
23 hours to go
Oct 04, 2009
tomorrow at this time, i'll be in pre-op. cant believe it. this 1 1/2 year journey has reached this point........i'm anxious to see what the next 1 1/2 years will bring.
i'm anxious for sure.......not scared. i have my supplies but need to clean my room and bathroom. hopefully, that will keep me preoccupied. i am a bit whoozy at times.......7 days without food is a first for me.
i'm so glad i found this website.........the feeling "im alone" sucks.........now i know i am NOT alone and that in a matter of minutes........i can get support from others like me. Thanks for being there for me
best wishes to all tomorrow and future surgery dates...........
a NEW toy......umm....well, sort of
Oct 02, 2009
YET.........here I am.......a proud owner of a scale. a RED one to boot.....i figure, it might as well be dramatic and bright. so, i guess this truly is the first step towards healing.............sure as heck would not have purchased one before
A TOAST..........TO ME! i'm in awe of myself...................who am i turning into? ha ha ha
11am this monday!!
Oct 02, 2009
a rush of different emotions with fear being in the #1 place. New friends on this site have come back with some great thoughts and it is actually working. i'm calming down.....
i guess the thing that is in the front of all the emotions is that i must bury an old friend. a friend that has been around for decades.............true, not the most positive friend but definitely a constant. i am focusing on mourning for a little bit and then the future. shopping wherever i want..........sit comfortably in a theatre/plane/restaurant booth etc....better health.........i could go on and on
so, my hat is off to all those that have gone before me..............in 72 hours.........i will be one of you.............and thats ok!