MsShawna

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Hi everyone I went to the doctors and from the beginning of my weight journey in March were my insurance required I lose some weight before surgery to now. I am down 69 pounds I could not believe it. And my doctor is beyond happy. She took me off of all my medication except one. My blood pressure medicine she wants to keep me on it a little longer. But she lowered the dosage and said maybe in a month I will be off of it. I have dreamed about this day and now its here.

Hi everyone I have always had a problem with taking pictures especially the up close kind. I guess I didn't like what I saw a extra chin, no neck etc. But yesterday I let my family take some close up pictures they are in my profile let me know what you think. Much love and hugs!!

Hi everyone I just did my first 3 mile walk in honor of my son in the juvenile diabetes research walk.I have NEVER Been Able To Walk ONE mile . But I did it I started to hurt through it all but I looked at my son and all the other families and children we were there to support and the pain didn't matter no more. And before I knew it I was crossing the finish line.

Hello everyone yesterday was a very emotional day for me. Me and my family were invited to a donors picnic for my father. They had food everywhere and my emotions were all over the place. But I used my emotional state to focus on honoring my father. You see my father told me and my family when the Good man above came to get him he didn't want no funeral he wanted to be cremated. I am my father's only daughter and I am a daddy's girl it bothered me that I could not honor him with a funeral but I wanted to fulfill his wishes. So when I got the call about honoring him for being a organ donor I was so excited. So knowing I would be a wreck and food in the past helped me. I went to the wishing well and released balloons with a message to my father telling him how much I loved and missed him really gave me closure .And before I left I was approached by a donor receipant of my father's organs and it really touched me because she thanked me and my family and expressed how my father's willingness to give his organs so someone could live just sent me so emotional and she wanted us to stay in touch and this helps me deal with me losing him but know I have a special friend his receipant of his organs so its like I still have him because he lives within my new friend .

Hello everyone I just wanted to share this with you my clothes have started to get real baggy so me and my husband after he convinced me to we headed to the store because all my pants now 2 people can fit into them so I had no idea what size I wear now. Well I tried on some jeans that are 4 sizes smaller and they fit I screamed and cried at the same it I am sure I freaked some customers out. My husband and the sales Representative came running I was to excited to be embarrassed lol! After I explained my outburst they all laughed and congratulated me. I have never really like wearing jeans now I embrace how I look in them. I knew I was losing weight but I have had some discouraging moments and this validates I am heading in the right direction so for anyone having a hard time please hang in there it gets better and you will see the results I just wanted to share this with you .Stay encouraged and be blessed I took a picture of me in my jeans its in my profile pictures if you want to see it!

Hi everyone last week I took my son to get his schedule at school. Over the years I never went inside with him. Only because I didn't like the way I looked and I didn't want to embarrass my son. So I let him out to go get his schedule he didn't move. I asked him was he OK he said ma you are coming inside right? I froze he is a junior in high school I said you don't want your momma inside do you you might run into your friends. He laughed and said ma you and Dad are my parents and always will be and he stated he loves us. And he is proud of my accomplishments I have made in my weight loss .And concerning his friends he stated we have always taught him and his brothers to be respectful and he will not accept disrespect from his friends concerning me he said because if they are true friends there is no disrespect. I had to sit back and I said boy when you get so wise he laughed and said I don't know ma I just remember everything you and Dad taught me. And he smiled and walked away to get his schedule but he stopped and said hey ma have I told you how pretty you look. Lord I smiled so big I told him you know how to make your momma smile he said its the truth and as I was waiting on him a couple of his friends came up to me and said wow ms Shawna you look great .I can't thank God enough for blessing me with family and friends who loved me through my good and bad days and I finally can smile again!

Hi everyone I am having one of those days when I don't like what I see yes I am losing weight but I feel like at such a turtles pace. I am exercising 5x a week for 45 minutes to a hour. What I am struggling with is 64 oz of liquid I barely can get in 40 I am trying I know this to will pass. I am staying hopeful!

Hi everyone its my 1 month post-op anniversary I made it. I have to say it has been a variety of rollercoaster rides. But overall I think this is one of the best decisions I have ever made. And I am definitely looking forward to a more healthier and happier life!  

Hi everyone I was talking to my oldest son about school starting and he just made me face a reality . I told him son now that I have had surgery and is losing weight you don't have to be embarrassed by me. He gave me a weird look and said ma what are you talking about I never was embarrassed I always loved you. And I could feel the tears coming he continue to say he his brothers and my husband have been waiting for me to love myself. So I thought because of my weight he was embarrassed he never said it to me  but I guess he was right that is how I was feeling I didn't like myself. I tell you sometimes all you have to do is listen to your kids they will tell you the hard truth even when you don't want to hear it.

Hi everyone the anniversary of my father's passing will be here soon. And I miss him so much I wish he could see the progress I have made. I had a dream the day before surgery about my father. He was telling me how much he loved me and always have. You see my father was a man of few words and he was real stern. And I always wonder if he loved me. (Tears sorry Guys) And on the day he passed the hospital staff handed me his wallet and inside was a picture of only me and he wrote on the back my lovely daughter who I love with all my heart. My weight gain is center around not feeling loved . I have never heard my father say those words. And while I have many family members who love and support me. Hearing the words from my father that I could do it. And that he loved me really made a difference. And I thank him for his support and love. Obviously he is watching me from above I just wish he was here to share this journey with me. But until we meet again Dad I love you and now I know I can do this!