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March 1st, 2012: So, this will not be one of those tragic stories. iRefuse. As much as there is some tragedy involved, I don't want to tell some tragic fat chick's story, yanno? 
So, I won't. There, glad we got that over with....lol. 
Yes, I've had my weight issues. Yes, I was a chunky kid. Yes, my weight went up and down. Yes, I got tall, yes things chilled for a long while. I was a "thickum" vs being heavy. And yes, I've had some tragedies in my life that I might've eaten myself through since then. Me + stress = a 10 piece house wings with fries, and a piece of cheesecake afterward. But I liked that math, so it worked for a while. 
And yes, I had a bad case of body dysmorphia. So, as some ppl said "you carry your weight well", I said "I sure do...I'm cute, ain't I?" And yes, I popped a fry in my mouth as I said it. Hmph.
And then I reached critical mass. So this leg of my journey started at 300+ lbs, got as high as 325, and as my heatlh problems escalated: high blood pressure, heart troubles, sleep apnea, migraines, insomnia, back & knee probems, the whole nine. Eating didn't help, and working out (which I'd done sporadically for years) only helped...sporadically.
The Aha moment!: I had a party at my house, invited some new people, and one of the attendees and I got to talking on a personal level, and she mentioned she'd had a RnY. She looked naturally thin, like she'd never been heavy. I met another young lady online, who was pending her RnY. And her story mirrored mine. Aha - surgery isn't failure? It's feasible? And I can lose, permanently? A signiicant enough amount that I can then 
and 
and eat sensibly and win this battle?
Seems like a no brainer, right?
So here I am, 1 week post-op. Looking forward to te rest of this journey. And using all the tools (my personal support system, support groups, this website, etc) as necessary to make this happen. And from what I hear, you're coming along too. Welcome. I hope we can travel together. Looking forward to the adventures we'll face along the way...let's go. 
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