nia111
I hope this isn't too predictable :
I was put on a diet before I could even talk, meaning I was a fat baby to begin with. As a baby and toddler I grew up on watered down drinks and a very low fat diet. In preschool I was already the biggest girl in my class and didn't get why my lunches were always so different from everyone else's (half a granola bar instead of a whole one, etc).
By middle school the strict dieting had worked and though I was still overweight in BMI, my weight was not yet out of control. I had grown into my weight somewhat. There were still times I was teased for having bigger legs than the rest of the girls or for not being able to keep up with everyone else but for the most part, this was the best shape my body has ever been in and I'd do anything to be back at that "overweight" state. Still, my self confidence began to suffer since there was so much emphasis put on our changing bodies.
In high school I continually gained weight, at least thirty five pounds in one year. I tried losing weight by drinking protein shakes and salads at night but found that when I tried to eat anything else I would get sick so I stopped. Whatever I ever lost, I gained back and what I lose was never significant. College was even worse, where I gained seventy pounds in one year without even eating junk food or soda, and my weight has been climbing even since.
I have a BMI of 45 now...I'm hoping surgery will do something so that I feel full and get back to a point where I can incorporate exercise back into my life. I want to feel healthy and happy again. I don't want to have to think about things no one my age should have to think about and I don't want my weight to hold me back any more.
