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doing good, doing good. have lost a total of 34 pounds since the start of this process in late October and 21 since my surgery. I picked up a 5lb weight and though dang this is heavy, imagine i've lost 5 of those? wow. i've already gone from a 20 to a 16 jean and my bra's are fitting loser so i know my chest that that whole area is shrinking too. this is freaking awesome

yesterday was a challenging day. and did i stick to the pre-op, not 100%. I'm on the wagon today with both feet. c'mon now girl get serious here.

11/9 all pre op tests

11/16 dr. visit for ekg and clearance

11/16 notify surgeons office all above is done and total weight loss / they submit for surgery

Hopefully surgery will be in about 30 - 45 days from now. I've been told from surgeons office it'll be a quick approval process based on their dealing with my group/insurance/doctor.

i really over did it yesterday. those damn chocolate chip cookies. i think i'm going to really need some kind of counseling or constant support group when the surgery is over and i'm back to normal foods because i don't want to ever be "here" again.

today just shy of 2 weeks on the pre op diet i really haven't seen the scale move too much which caused me to cheat a little. not bad; but nonetheless i cheated. i continue to tell myself that once i have the surgery i won't do this. there will be too much to lose. Literally and figuratively!

I so feel the need / desire to EAT that I've munched during the day on Salami and Cheese. It's gone now. Although it's low in carbs I still violated the rules of the pre op. Back on track I go. It seems so much easier during the week.

Going Friday for all the pre-op tests / blood work. Can't wait for this surgery.

i'm doing this pre-op thing and my scale at home hasn't changed so much as an ounce? i've always had this problem when trying to lose weight. it's like by body is weight loss resistant, like a water proof watch is water resistant!!  and this is where the discouragement comes in...like water rushing down a river.

Today is day 7 of my pre-op diet. have i been perfect. nope. but i've been way better than i thought i would. and i think i found some new inspiration as well. we had a party here for my daughter's boyfriend who just came back from a 7 month deployment to Afghanistan and there were all these young adults here and i saw some that were thin and some that were not. and i thought i can't go back and change my 20's, 30's. But i damn sure can change the rest of my 40's and so on.

I wonder what my life would have been like if i were "thin" Nancy 20 years ago? Oh well I can't keep looking back cuz I might miss what I should be looking forward to.

day 3 pre-op and im alright. the first day was R O U G H but not sure if it was all related to not being able to eat. nonetheless i'm feeling good. i'm finding it's not too difficult to stick to this preop diet. i munch a few sliced pickles here and there but they are zero everything so i think it's ok. my chips and tortillas and xtra sharp cheddar are calling my name but i'm ignoring them like i do my husband. LOL

the more i look at all the before and after photos i am convinced beyond my original 100% that this is so right for me.

i was upstairs last night in our loft and started looking, really looking, at old photos from 20+ years ago and yep, there was a small piece of time where i was not thin, but not so heavy but it didn't last long. in every photo i'm fat. overweight. pleasantly plump. i think back to a time when i was thin. i do not remember when that might have been. i'm not petite so i'm a big girl by nature. i have what's i consider an athletic build. although with all the fat you can no longer see that.

but soon, i will, the world will, see the real me. soon.

i ate a few pickle slicesm the kind you'd put on a buger. how bad is thst during the pre-op diet process

i'm going to look at the before and after photos of folks who have been successful at this. so far that's changed my mood right now.

i don't know if it's because i started my pre-op diet today but i feel like i'm jumping out of skin. i'm pissed of because i can't chew anything.