Happy Birthday to Me

Apr 08, 2010

 Today I am 28. Last year I got the best belated birthday present I have ever gotten, I was switched (April 21, 2009). 

I woke up this morning at 209 (weighed myself twice for verification purposes, you know you need to be statistically accurate ^_^) and did a little dance. It is very likely that I could be under 200lbs by my surgery anniversary. Now that's not my goal by far. But I have told everyone I know that if I could live my life under 200lbs I would consider myself and my surgery a complete and total success. I have dropped from a size 38 to a size 18 in pants. Because I am disproportionately bigger on bottom, I can wear a 10/12 on top. I tried on a swim suit for the first time in my life in a regular store, hell this is the first time in YEARS that I have tried on a swimsuit in ANY store. And it was cute and while my post obesity body and flappy skin and foldy knees leave quite a bit to be desired I sat there and looked at myself and thought...you know this right here...Is NOT horrible. I mean it's not IDEAL if it were ideal I'd look like a victoria secret super model, lol. But it's not horrible. It's acceptable. And it fits, and I could wear it. I could wear a cute, age appropriate swim suit, from Old Navy. I could theoretically shop many different stores to find a swimsuit I love. I don't have to order some thick strapped corset built in neon 1970s couch print skirted abomination from an online specialty store. It was great, it was gratifying, it made me feel normal.

So on my 28th birthday for the first time in my life, I feel normal. Like everyone else. Overweight like everyone else, able to shop like everyone else, treated like everyone else. People see me now, even though there is less of me to see. It's a great feeling and it's a great birthday gift. 

I <3 my DS. 

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