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I finally had my first fill today, I don't feel any different so we'll see what happens. I had nothing in my band at all so that's why I have been at a plateau for what seems like forever. I am currently at 230, which is 7 lbs down from my last post. But hopefully the weight will start to come off at a more productive level since I am finally able to get fills. My next appointment is set for March 8th. Honestly I'm just ready to actually start losing weight, not just water weight. I know I still have along way to go in my journey. Still have 80lbs to go, that seems like so so much. I really need th restriction bc I feel like I can eat so much right now. It's really all about will power. My brain hasn't caught up with my band yet.

Well after waiting for what seems like forever I have finally made it passed 238 which I have been stuck at since before thanksgiving. I'm at 237 I know it's only one lb but to actually FINALLY see the scale move has been a wonderful uplifting experience. I know I desperately need a fill but I still gotta wait until I meet the navy Dr here which is on Monday, wait for them to put a referral in, which takes at least 2 weeks I was told, then I can finally make an appt with the actually Lapland clinic to finally have a fill. But I know I probably wont be seen til like after Christmas and new years. It's just horrible timing for me. To top it off, I've been training to do in home childcare and it took twice as long as they told me it would take and BC of my hubby schedule and when the gym closes I haven't been able to go at all. I'm really pissed about it and really wish I had some sorta equipment in my house so I didn't have to rely on when the base decides the gym needs to be open. Hubby says he thinks it's dumb to buy equipment that I have supposedly readily available. HA. But he says he will get me an Nintendo wii and wii fit for Christmas... so that's something. I just hope I can lose some more while I'm waiting for this fill appointment to go through.

Well today just to see I decided to try on a size 14 jean. I started this weight loss journey wearing size 20.... and guess what. THEY FIT. What a great feeling to actually know I have gone down 2 jean sizes in 2 months. I am so proud of myself. The scale may not be moving much but I know i'm losing the weight. I'm so happy I decided to do this for myself

This weightloss is truly the hardest thing I have had to do. I'm mainly upset b/c I had this surgery on Sept 21st 2009 and then the navy moved us to the dang desert. The nearest dr is literally 30-40 minutes away. I thought I could just make an appointment to have a fill done since I have platued or so my realizemysucess website is tell me. I've only lost 20lbs since my surgery and feel like i'm failing before I'm even getting started. I have been trying to make a dr's appt for like 3 weeks now only to be told that I need a referral from my PCF before they will see me. Well I didn't know I needed a new referral btu apparently I do. And guess what, the desert navy base doesn't have any appts til DECEMBER 14TH. Ya hear that OH peeps. DECEMBER 14TH. It really truly sucks. I have no restriction right now and can pretty much eat like I could before I had the surgey and it makes me wanna cry. I have been working out 3 times a week for 30 minutes or so but I feel like I should be doing it 5 times a week or I wont notice any results. I got my 135lbs husband trying to tell me that if I'm not drenched in sweat then I'm nto really having a workout, maybe he is right but has he ever tried to run with size 46h boobies? I think NOT! Anywho, I'm just upset that I'm stuck at apoint right now where I really can't do more than what I am doing and just hope for the best as far as my weight loss is concerned.  Luck wishing folks!!

Renee