Pre op liquid diet...pre op liquid hell!

Dec 12, 2012

So I am only a few days into my pre op liquid diet. I knew it was going to be hard, challenge me, and probably leave me so hungry I get pissed. Well,in two days I have definitely experienced being hangry (so hungry I am angry). I broke down and had some chilli tonight. This is where a lot of people say they feel like a failure. I don't. I didn't fail. I listened to my body and knew if I did not eat, I could become ill. But I am worried about my ability to adhere to a restricted diet for the rest of my life. I know post op it will be easier than now. But this liquid diet is reeeeally playing with my head. I am going to call and talk to my surgeon's office tomorrow and find out if there is anything to help the hunger. Maybe I need more shakes, I don't know. But I have lost over 7 pounds in 2 days. I feel pretty good about that. I had my husband take before pictures of me tonight. Gah! Talk about depressing. Flabby butt, saddle bags, batwings, saggy boobs, turkey neck, double chin....but beyond that, I saw sorrow. And fear. I am never in pictures. Ever. I hate seeing myself. I have that belief that if I don't see it, no one else can either. Yeeeeaaah...how's that working for me? I am off for my last shake of the day. Mmmm mmmm...

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