Peardrop43
Thought i would say how i became to be morbidly obese and waiting for gastric bypass surgery.
As a child i wasn't overweight, very slim until about 11yrs and then i seemed to have thunder thighs and good child bearing hips!!! But not big at all really just puppy fat as they same in the UK. At the age of 18yrs i was uk size 12/14 on the bottom and size 10 on the top (hense the nickname Peardrop slim on the top and fatter on the bottom).
My family used to say that my eyes were too big for my belly but i didnt have a bigger portion than them so i didn't really understand why they said that. well due to not getting on with my new step father i left home at 16yrs and moved into a bedsit and that is when i started not to eat properly.
At 18yrs old i was worried about my weight but hey i only weighed 9st 7lbs(which is a healthy weight for my height)but family put pressure on me to lose weight and so i prescribed Tanuate dospan(slimming tablet). But i seemed to be putting on small amount of weight even on this tablet so my doctor ordered a pregnancy test and would you believe it i was pregnant(5mths gone in fact)and this was causing my weight gain.
After my daughter was born i got into the routine of not eating breakfast and if i didn't feel hungry i would miss lunch too but when it came to dinner i was eating but the naughty food that makes you put on weight. Even with regular exercise i used to walk everywhere pushing a heavy pram taking Louise to baby clinic everyday which was 3miles away(hadn't passed my driving test at this point)but before i knew it i was 18st and i stayed at 18st for a few years. Everything i tried to lose weight didnt work the most i have ever lost must be a stone!!!
1994 saw me pregnant again with my second daughter, whilst pregnant i only put on 12lbs as she was fed from my fat reserves and when she was born weighing 8lb 4oz i didnt look any different(people couldnt even tell i was pregnant just looked a little fatter).
So here i was weighing 18st but healthy, fit and happy. I didnt have a big tummy i carried my weight on my hips legs and bum, but that all changed when i relocated to another county in 2003. The weight seem to pile on but i wasnt doing anything differently or even eating anymore if anything less!!!
Before i knew it i was 20st, then 23st then 24st, during this time my 20yr marriage came to an end and for at least three months i wasnt hardly eating anything surviving on cheap white wine and fags(now tea total & dont smoke)must just add that i didnt become addicted to wine or anything.
Then i met my wonderful 2nd hubby and everything was good, despite having everything thrown at us over our last 7yrs together we are still together but now i weigh 27st and i really do not no how i got here and that's being really honest.
Its got to change i now have a Grandson and i want to be around to see him grow up and my daughters married. I want to live to old age so i am on the waiting list for a Gastric Bypass and i am so worried that i will die before i get it or during the operation!!!
I am struggling with feeling satisfied rather than full when i stop eating my meals. I just hope that there is someone out there that is going through the same thing that we can become friends and encourage each other and see our lives transformed.
I am scared of being thinner as i haven't been slim since i was 18yrs old and haven't worn a pair of jeans since then either(my goal) i just don't want to lose me!!!
Well that is me so i hope it hasn't put you off and you will drop me a line.
