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I am on cloud 9 right now!! I just got home from my monthly weigh in at my hospital, I just finished my third month of the required 6 months. However, the best part is, i LOST the 2 lbs I gained!! Yeah, I was a little bummed that I didn't lose more than that but it did make my day that I lost those two pounds I gained. I knew I gained them and I did something about it and I got them back off. Some people might say its just two pounds, nothing special, but to me that's like losing 100 lbs. I can only imagine how I'm going to react when I actually lose 100 lbs lol. & Also, tomorrow makes me one month exactly that I've been on this site and it amazes me how made good people I've met on here in one short month, I have friendships that I hope will last a lifetime. Today couldn't be any better for me. I hope all of you are doing good and to the ones who had surgery today, my thoughts and prayers are with you! I pray for you to be complication free :)  God bless, XoXo.

Things have been better these past couple days. My cold is starting to go away, Thank God for answering my prayers on that. I've been better on eating. Just one thing I wanna share, I've been so proud of myself these last two days, I've actually listened to my body and stopped when I felt comfortable and I didn't go back for seconds or to eat again until it was time for the next meal. It feels so good. I'm still trying to break my late night snacking, that's whats getting the best of me. Also, I had one other thing I want to share that hit really close to home for me. I was watching an episode of Reba, and in that episode, Reba and Cheyenne were trying to help Barbara Jean lose weight and they were talking to Barbara Jean and she said how she wishes she was born naturally slender like they were and they kept re-assuring her she was beautiful the way she was and she told Reba, "All this dieting is just making me miserable." Reba replied, "Then stop it, I mean it." Barbara Jean said, "Yeah right." Reba asked, "Why not? If its making you miserable it's not worth it." Barbara Jean started to cry a little and simply said, "Because I want to be beautiful." By this point, I was crying my eyes out because that's exactly how I feel most of the time. I'm tearing up just thinking about it again as I type this. This made me think, this surgery is going to change my life in more ways then one. I can't wait until I feel beautiful. Yeah, I know beauty comes in all shapes and sizes but just personally, I don't feel beautiful or pretty. My dad tells me all the time that I'm beautiful and every time I just say, "thank you but not until I get my weight off." But, aren't dads just suppose to tell us that? lol.. But, Yeah. I guess that's it for now, just wanted to share all of this. Good luck to all of you.. To the ones who had surgery today, my thoughts and prayers are with you, and I pray for a speedy recovery and complication free during and after surgery! God bless, XoXo.

well, I woke up this morning with my head cold back. So not fun especially with this beautiful weather we had today. Then I gained 2 lbs, which is not what I wanted to see but oh well, I just gotta work harder. I'm not going to let this bother me enough to set me back. Food has not been my friend this week. Speaking of food, what kinds of food you RNYers eat frequently? I'm trying to get some ideas so I can be prepared come my surgery. Sorry for the short post, just wanted to check in and say I'm still hanging around and getting through these struggles. Hope you all are doing great and all the ones who had surgery today, my thoughts and prayers are with you and I pray for complication free! 

I am so mad at myself right now.. I have been doing good on working on losing as much weight at I could for my surgery. Today, I overate so bad at dinner. As I'm typing this right now, I feel so sick to my stomach, I feel bloated, I feel bad. Why do I keep doing this to myself? I honestly can't tell you why. I am so ready to change. I have had a bad day today. It seems like everyday is bad. My surgery date could not come fast enough. I am tired of doing this to myself and I'm tired of living this way. If you don't mind, please keep me in your prayers. Thanks.

Today was very relieving for me. I met with my surgeon and I talked out ALL my fears and concerns. She talked with me about everything and never made me feel "crazy" or something. I am more at ease with my decision now. My surgeon said she doesn't see a lot of complications, especially the ones I was afraid of. She has a very low complication rate and from my understanding, she's never lost a patient. I am more than confident in my surgeon. I couldn't have asked for a better doctor than Dr.Hamad, she's amazing. I also received all my packets of information for pre-op, hospital stay, and then post op. I have tons of reading to do :) Now, the fun part begins, pre op testing lol.. However, I am excited because with each test done, that puts me one step closer to my surgery. I am so happy and so ready for my life to change. My journey is officially beginning!!

I am very excited to say the least. I meet with my surgeon, Dr. Hamad, in three days!! I can't wait to get all my packets of information, I love to read lol.. I went with my sister to her appointment and we have the same surgeon so I already know I love Dr. Hamad, she's great. However, I'd be lying if I said I didn't have an emotional trip today. I read about a person who is a year post op and has lived miserably. I am so scared I'm going to be one of these people who has a lot of complications and just lives miserable. I am young so I want to live a long happy healthy life not be in the hospital ER every week. I don't know though. I don't think that person had a good surgeon and if that was the case I don't have any worries because my surgeon is really amazing. But, I'm keeping my eye on the prize. I want this weight off and I'm going to get if off one way or another. Sometimes I just wonder why couldn't I be one of the people who was born naturally slender. But, I got to do what I have to do to better myself. My surgeon better be ready for me lol I'm going in blazing with my long list of questions haha :) Hope everyone is doing good and all that had surgery today, I wish you well and a speedy recovery! God bless, XoXo.

Today hasn't been so peachy. My joints have hurt pretty much all evening. I've had an upset stomach since about 3, I've had to make myself eat, I haven't felt like eating anything. I find myself wanting my surgery more than ever tonight. I just can't wait to feel better, health wise and look wise. I went out this morning and all I kept doing in every store was looking at myself in mirrors and just saying how much i hate the way i look. I can't wait until I look at my reflection and actually smile. I just can't wait to close this chapter in my life and start a new one. It all begins with my surgery. But, I've dealt with this crap for 19 years, waiting three months for it all to be over isn't too bad. Hopefully, three months that is. I haven't gotten my surgery date yet but if all goes according to plan, I've added up it should be around June or July. So, I'm hoping for then. I can't wait to see where I'll be by my 20th birthday in 9 months. I'm hoping to have made a drastic change before then. But, we'll see. Until then, I'm hanging in there. Hope everyone else is doing good and hope all the ones who had surgery today are doing great and complication free! :)

Well, today was pretty good for me. I went with my sister to her first consultation appointment, I learned so much. I absolutely cannot wait until my appointment is here, only a couple weeks left! I also got to meet our surgeon and I love love love her! This only makes me more excited for the future! Then after her appointment we stopped at the mall to look around, we went in stores like American eagle, I can't wait until I can shop those stores! I know one day my sister and I both will be there! Here's to the future, for the first time in a long time I feel like everything is going to be ok :) 

I'm Tiffany. I am only 19 years old but I have struggled with weight all my life. I wasn't that big as a child but I did notice I was bigger than all the other kids in my neighborhood. My weight started to pack on in about 9th grade. I faced some hard times in high school. I am currently in the process of having Gastric Bypass or known as RNY. I don't have a surgery date yet but that'll be one of the best days of my life when they call me to set it up. I am going through this process with my mom and sister. I am having this surgery to help give me a life, I'm tired of living this way. I'm alive but I don't feel like I am. I feel invisible. I can't to be able to do things I can't do right now, it's just going to make it so much better. I just can't wait to look into the mirror one day and not be disgusted with the reflection looking back at me. A couple things I'd like to accomplish with this surgery are: 1. Not shop in plus size sections 2. Meet the man of my dreams 3. Shop at Victoria Secret 4. Have a healthy BMI. All of those I've never done/had. I'm ready to live life! This is the first of many posts you'll see from me! I'm beginning my journey! :)  God bless, XoXo.