Phatchick
4 Month Surgiversary
Aug 15, 2012
Today, it is exactly 4 months since God blessed me with my sleeve. I have lost 52 lbs in 4 months and a total of 76. I have learned so much about myself in this time. I found out the old me was still there, hidden under all the fat. I also learned I love to move and I love always being on the go. I am still a 280# woman, but I am living life, not sitting on the sidelines watching my life go by. The saddest thing about being 356 pounds was how numb I had gotten. I had accepted my size, weight and poor lifestyle as normal. I still cannot explain how that happened. I know how I got to that point, I just do not know how i came to accept it as a way of life for myself. For me, it has been a steady slow loss. I don't drop 7-10 lbs a week like many do, but i am enjoying this journey. I savor the day, each day, as I experience my new life. I wonder what I will look like at my goal weight of 185. I wonder what it will feel like to be 185 lbs? The wonderful thing about today is, I KNOW I will experience the goal.In the mean time, my next goal is to lose the century mark. I cannot believe that is only 24 lbs away. My goal is to lose that by October sometime. Goals are great. I have daily goals, weekly goals and other goals. This keeps my head in the game. My machine (body) lacks discipline and wants to sleep late, not exercize, eat junk and be lazy. That was the old me. That was when my machine was in control. Now my mind is in control. My mind tells my machine to get out of bed and work out, to eat the correct foods and how much. My mind controls my machine and that is the new me. My sleeve is a big part of my success but it is a mere tool. I thought the journey would be different. I thought the weight would magically melt off. It's not magical. It is a journey of change. That change is sooooooooooo good for me. I am building character and learning about what will make me succeed when in the past I did not. Thank you God for so much insight and love.
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About Me
Brookfield, IL
Location
39.9
BMI
Surgery
04/16/2012
Surgery Date
Apr 27, 2005
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