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Can you say BIG LONG STALL!  I am still weighing between 185-187 and have been for what seems like forever.  Cannot get the stupid scale to move.  To be honest......I started a different job a month ago, and have not been eating great...it has been very busy, and  stressful, and so I think my carbs have increased adding to my stall.  That is life.  I cannot say that I am not pleased with me right now...because I am.  I would be happy with another 20 lbs off......I think my goal should be about 160, and that would be about a 8 or 10 for me in clothing.  It is frustrating, and I am nervous about going back to weigh in!  I am afraid my Dr. will be upset with my progress.  Oh well....I am a big girl and I didn't do this for HIM...I did it for me.  Right?  

Oh, SSS......Sagging Skin Syndrome!  UGH!  I hate it...I hate it, and I really hate it.  Plus, I am losing my hair.  I love my hair.  ARGH.  WHAAAA.  :)  I am done feeling sorry for myself now.  LOL!  Have a blessed month.

So, you can obviously tell I am frustrated!  I have not lost anything for a couple of weeks.  I am not really sure how long it has been because I have bounced between 189-192 for what seems like forever.  I don't think I am losing inches either....I just feel fat the past couple of days.  I am trying to kick up my protein, and my fluids.....but still...NOTHING.  I posted about it, and got some good support.  I am so thankful to have found the Lightweights board...they are a great group of people.  They are supportive, and no question is dumb question over there.  I love the fact that they genuinely seem to care about eachother.  That is a wonderful thing given we are all on similar journeys, and have much to share as far as experiences, and knowledge.  

I am so worried that my losses have stopped, and this is it.  I would hate that if it were the case.  I know that I have to get more off to feel better.  I have not lost enough.  Granted, I feel better, but still feel like I have a long ways to go to feel like the person I want to be.  I am losing pretty slowly as well, and so with the stalls.......I about to go crazy.  I know there are many people who are going through the the same emotions, and frustrations.  I take comfort in knowing that this too shall pass.  I sure hope it passes.  

I have been through a lot to have this be it.  UGGGGHHHH! 

I am feeling pretty good in general....but right now....my whole family, myself included....all have STREP THROAT.  What a mess our house is!  We all went to the Dr. today, and got on antibiotics, and am feeling a bit better already.  Thank heavens!    About me....I am down to 191 so far.  That is 39 lbs in less than 3 months.  I go tomorrow(almost 11 weeks out) for the results of my labs.  I am making a new commitment to doing better on proteins.  I have not been doing great....I am being honest....but honesty does not make OK, does it?  I have to recommit, and not make any more excuses.......plus, getting back to exercising.  That is so necessary...and if I want to kick up my loss....I gotta get moving.  I am under 200 again......and it feels better.  It is not great yet....but my goals are looking more attainable.  That is something, isn't it?  I hope everyone is well, and that they are not only existing in this lifestyle.....but living it.  Life is a gift, and so is this tool we have been given!  

I was a little disappointed....I have only lost 24 lbs by their scales.   I should not be discouraged, or feel badly....that is 4 lbs a week.  That is a pretty big WOW though....I need to lose another 66 lbs to get to goal.  I asked the Dr. today about setting a goal for me, and he said at about 6 months out he would do an analysis of where he thinking I should stop losing, and set a goal at that time.  I hope by then I am at goal, or getting very close to it.....that would only be 10 lbs per month to lose.  I know I need to kick up my exercise a bit, and start walking more.....I just gotta do it.  I need to get to Jazzercise 3 times per week instead of just 2 times.  Oh well.....I have more things to work on like my protein etc.  

It is really amazing to consider what another 66 lbs will look like on me.  I am not sure if my mind is totally wrapped around that yet.  I am doing much better mentally with how much food I can ingest at one time....it is not as hard as I thought it would be.  The holidays were very tough for me...I admit that.  I am glad I am past all that now.  So glad.  

Well.....that is about it for updates.   I am feeling pretty good.  I am staying the course, and I hope that my losses continue.

Well.....this week has been an OK week in general.  I figured out I had a bladder infection, and started Macrobid.  I was having some urgency, strong urine, and then came the right sided back pain.  The pain was not fun....and there were times when it was kind of sharp at times....but with a little pain medication....increased fluids, and a heating pad...I am feeling a bit better.  Not 100%, but getting there.  Gotta go to work tomorrow...UGH.  I hope to continue to feel better.  I think the worst is behind me now.  

I have not been hungry at all the past couple of days...NOTHING sounds good.  I cannot think of a single thing that sounds good to eat.  I don't know....it is a strange feeling when you are used to eating anytime...anywhere.  I guess that is just part of the process......some days you can eat more...and other days, much less.  As long as I get my fluids in....and my protein..I should be OK.  I hope.

I have no idea how much I have lost....somewhere around 25 lbs..but am waiting to weigh on until I see my surgeon on Jan. 29th for my 6 week checkup.  I'd like it to be a surprise....I hope to have lost anything over 20 lbs.  We shall see huh? 

So...there is a post today talking about how people don't like typos people make on their posts!  I did not reply, but it bothered me.  I was reading it like "oh good grief" and thought that it was sad that people have to worry about how they type, instead of problems they are facing, or questions that they are posting about!  I am not judging anyone...I am just saying that who cares if the posts are not typed perfectly!  I hope it does not cause people not to post!  

I lost some finally....I was getting pretty discouraged about this last couple of weeks.  I was stalled, and nothing was happening at all.  I was pleased to see I am down another couple pounds....I think I have lost around another 4 lbs or 20 # since 2 days before surgery.  That was at my final weigh in before surgery.  I am pleased with that, and seem to be adjusting to this new lifestyle pretty easily.   It is not easy...I have had the foamies a couple of times this week, but it could be much worse.  I am pretty lucky to have had no complications.....so far.  I hope and pray things continue to be positive for me! 

I know....I hear it over, and over in my mind.....you are not running a sprint....but a marathon!  Yes, I know.  But, I wish these scales would budge.  They are NOT moving.  I guess that my body is not sure what to do....stay the same...or lose.  I guess I have put it through enough over the years.  No wonder it is not cooperating!  :)  

My thought is this....if I am going to lose my boobs and my behind.....as I stated to someone I sent a PM....then I want my food back.  I just want to see some results!  I think I am losing inches...I think I am.  I don't have a clue if this is going to work for me.  It is just so hard to not see anything changing!  Surely someone can understand what I mean.   DANG IT!!!!

I guess that since I was not that overweight to begin with...although I felt I was...my body said so....that I am not going to lose weight as fast we others.  I know....don't compare myself to others, but I am thinking this isn't going to work.  What if it doesn't work for me?  I just have to keep doing what I am doing...and get to exercising.  Starting Jazzercise tomorrow, and am glad to be back to it.    Enough for now.....

My daughter had a birthday today.....Happy Birthday BABY!  She decided she wanted to skate, go out to eat, and then have a friend spend the night.  She is oh pretty spoiled as well....she got her Nintendo DS, and 2 games.   She won't be getting much of anything anytime soon.  She does love her new game though, and has been figuring out all PM. 

My first restaurant experience....it was not very fun.  My head wanted to gobble up everything I saw.   I had some cottage cheese, and some chicken noodle soup...mostly broth..a few overdone noodles.  Everyone else was eating steak, rolls etc.   It was hard to wrap my head around the things I could have vs. what I wanted to have.  Oh well...such is life.  I will get used to it, and I have to admit it is quite a challenge right now.  

I do feel pretty good though.  I am not in any pain, and my new tumtum is pretty agreeable right now.  I know it might be temporary, but right now...it is OK.  I am pretty lucky and keep reminding myself of that, and keep hoping this gift works for me, and I hope I don't fail.  

About the forums lately....man, oh man....it is just sad.  People have been flaming eachother, and purposely being nasty to one another.  I think I will just stay off the boards a few more days...and then once it settles down a little...come back and post again.  It is sad that even in cyberspace there are so many negative and miserable people.  I blocked a few people already just because I view them as toxic.  It is just one of those things that happens, and I don't have any desire to read what they post.  It is not anything positive and they spew nothing but negativity. 

So far I can honestly say that OH has really helped me to get this whole thing working for me.  I have read so many helpful posts, and knowing that someone else is experiencing the same issues, or have the same questions as me....it is therapeutic.  

Most times I don't even have to post the question....someone else already has, and I just lurk and read the replies.  I have met/talked to some really great people here, and they are just like me in that they are trying to improve their lives.  No gimic..no other alterior motives...they are just kind and caring individuals struggling with their own insecurities, and life trials.  It is not an easy road to travel alone, and I am so happy to have found a place that understands what I am going through, and potentially what I could go through down the road.  If you don't have the surgery....or live with someone who has...you don't have a clue...bottom line.  

***Dani..you are a great person, and such a support to  me.  You are not officially my angel...but you sure are one that was sent to me from above when I needed you the most!  Thank you!  To all my OH friends...you are all very special to me and I wish you nothing but continued success, and most of all HAPPINESS in 2008, and every year to follow.