razzberryb
I feel like I have struggled with weight all my life. Looking back on it though I would say it started in my early twenties. I was not overweight as a child however I was thicker than all my friends so I always thought I was the fat one. I do remember some family members telling me i was chunky though. i shrugged it off and acted like it didnt bother me. I joined the Army when I was 18. I always rode the line of their BMI standards. I ran almost everyday and exercised and stayed at a steady 24% BMI. Again, I was thicker then all my friends and still felt like the fat one.
I had my first child when I was 24 and that was the beginning of the true fat years for me. I was fine until after she was born. I remember the middle of the night feedings. She would nurse and I would munch on Christmas cookies and soda. I did end up losing most of the weight by following a low carb diet. Then my second child came and it has been a horrible losing battle ever since.
PICK hope this will me a journey of self discovery and healing for me. I want to learn how to control my eating. I want to recognize the signs of danger eating and learn to steer clear. I know in the beginning it will be an emotional journey. I am determined that it will have a happy outcome though.
