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My story... Well it is fairly simple, I weighed just over 6lbs when born but I gradually gained weight and didn't stop. I can remember in PE we would weigh ourselves and in 6th grade I weighed 198lbs... I weighed 317 when I got pregnant with our first daughter by the time I had her I was over 350, during my second pregnancy I started out at over 350 and still don't know my exact weight today and I must admit, I am scared to find out the true number... I am fortunate enough to have a very supportive husband, who loves me for who I am and just the way I am... My family is supportive but hesitant when it comes to GBS. I feel this is my last chance though, I have tried everything from patches to diets to fasting, nothing worked... I am at my wits end, I feel this is my last hope. I want to be able to run around and play with my kids, I want to be more activly involved in everything. I want to not be embarrassed to go out in public. Most of all I want to be healthy and I want more energy. I feel so tired all the time, I have arthritis in my back (and I'm only 28 years old), I have bursitis of the hip, I get painful rashes in the fat folds, I cannot sit in the floor, I have trouble bending over and I haven't taken a bath in so long... I want so much to be able to do the little things most people take for granted, something as simple as crossing my legs, tying shoe laces, taking a bubble bath, cuddling up on the couch, running outside with the kids, coloring in the floor and going up a couple of stairs without feeling like my legs are going to give out. I am tired of being scared to sit in other peoples furniture, in fear of breaking it, I hate that I make "big butt" indentions in everything I sit in more than a couple of times. I hate the fact that I cannot share a seat with my kids, I hate the fact I have no lap for them to sit on. I basically hate everything that is related to being fat. I want to love who I am and how I feel and look. I want to fit in and not stand out like a red spot on a white wall. I want to do more than survive.. I want to LIVE!