Help! losing track! bad habits HARD TO BREAK!!

May 31, 2016

I am failing at this surgery.. nibble here, nibble there.. chips and salsa.. couple bits of a chocolate chip cookie. omg.. what am i doing..  i am having a hard time knowing how to eat and what to eat.. to make things worse I DONT KNOW HOW TO COOK.. and to second that, my life is too busy to start learning. ugh!!!! i am failling at this .. please some help and advice..especialy some meal ideas!

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12 days post op

May 25, 2016

Hi all! I am 12 days out from my vsg surgery. My drinking pain has gotten much better. I had my staples removed yesterday and back to work i go.. I have been feeling very tried and weak, i guess it will take a little while to adjust back to reality. But the one thing that has brothering me the most is feeling hunger.. even after drinking a protein shake or yogurt.. i am still feeling hungry. I told my doctor yesterday and mention  about the online resources saying i should be on a ppi. which i am not on.. i am only on multuvitamin, tums and benefiber. honesty i have been feeling a little off by my doctors office and to me it seems like i am just getting the bare mininal information. I hope thats not the case..

can someone please confirm what was given, told and instructed to do after the vsg. Please and thank you.. that would really help!

 

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1 week post op- pain

May 20, 2016

I have been experiencing intensive , like a contraction, pain when drink anything . But now I experience it when laying down..pain is located at the very top of my stomach,somewhere where the esophagus meets the stomach.

I have called my doctor and the say it's normal.. 

Has anyone else experience this? If so, how long and does it ever get better ?

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The awful truth- 4 days post op

May 17, 2016

Scared, painful, regretful, disappointed, feeling plain oh stupid.. These were my exact feelings after surgery. Woke up in a glaze in the recovery room, with excruciating  pain in the upper abdominal area. Yeah, yeah , yeah, I know " but i just had a piece of my stomach removed. Anyways , It felt as though I was having heart pain, radiating to my back. Doctor came in to see me and said everything went well. Here's a pic.. Didn't see anything since my vision was blurry. And he left.. I was moved up to a room , where the nurse gives me juice with a straw! Let me just say now I was very disappointed with the service at this place..

I was given morphin for pain and something for nauseous.well morphin didn't ease the pain and the nauseou never went away. Couldn't drink anything , started vomiting , nauseous, repeat.. I didn't see my doctor until after 24 hours and when I did see him, everything is ok,, it's all normal..and he left again..

Well a 24 hours stay turned into 4 days. Feeling a little better now, I'm home , still some pain when drinking anything, I hope that gets better. 

I guess I'm being hard on myself because I chose to do this to myself.. This wasn't a requirment  for my life, but it was a choice, just like eating unhealthy to get to this point 

I hope this does get better and I start to really see the benefits of all this 

sorry for being such a pessimist 

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Driving to my surgery!

May 13, 2016

Well here I am.. on my way to the hospital... I feel neutral.. all week I was a nervous wreck.. and now no emotion.. well here I go....

See ya on the other side!!

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Do you ever miss eating LARGE?

May 11, 2016

 Two days away from my surgery.... and my anxitey is getting the best of me...these days are going by so slow ... and the one thought that keeps running through my mind is.. the food i will no longer be able to eat.. i guess its more of the quantity... went to a resturant with husband on mother's day and all i saw around me was people enjoying their large protion of foods.. and that again reminded me of the joy that came along with that.. but of course not the guilt i get after eating. anyways.. do you ever miss eating the large quantity of food? seeing friends and family eating? 

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Day 4 pre-op liquid diet

May 05, 2016

Today was better.. same meal plan.. just keep busier at work.. and when i got home i decided i wanted to start sharing this journey with you guys. what im feel, and what im doing to get through these obstacle... Not every day is going to be all happy and dandy and my experience can help someone else out there to get through this.. so today is much better, i started to accept this liquid diet...

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Day 3 of pre-op liquid diet- The day i mourn the loss of food

May 05, 2016

Wednesday 05/04/16 was alot more difficult to keep up with my meal plan.. i managed all the way up to dinner, except this time at 6pm i only had my benefiber, tums, and two popsicles. After this i went to my room and stayed to myself.. while watching the tv commercial of all these delicious food , which reminded me of what i can no longer touch , the forbitten foods.. i started to reminisce all of the " good times" i had with food, how happy it made me feel and that i would no longer have them. .. and that made me feel angry.. and i started to think.. what kind of life would it be if " this liquid diet" would be the only meals i could ever have again? What if life was about enjoy food as i have always? is this surgery worth being this miserable for the rest of my life?

With the help of goggle and some links on obesityhelp...this is when i realized i was mouring the loss of food.. One article reminded me that " my addition" " my relationship" with food was unhealthy..at first it will be hard to stop seeing food as quantity but eventually i can change my view to see it as quality... using my 5 sense during each bite.

I completed day 3 just as planned, it was diffcult but i closed my day right!. THIS MOMENT, allowed me to reflect back on what are my main  goal with this surgery.. why i started this journey 2 .5 years ago. Why i pushed myself to get to a surgery date 2 years later.. I fell to my knees but i did NOT break.. I will have this surgery.. i want MY life back. I want  to go to six flag and ride superman with my daughter.. to have the energy to get out of bed and take my kids bicycling. to be able to eat the food i love but in moderation.. This is why i am doing this surgery.. for me and only me..

 

 

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Day 2 of pre-op liquid diet

May 05, 2016

Day two was a little harder to be contented

Breakfast

protien shake

coffee with milk

 

Snack

2 sugar free jellos

 

Lunch

1 cup of vegetable broth

1 bottle of apple juice 15.2 oz (210 calories)

8 oz of sugar free jello

 

Dinner

Benefiber/ Tums

1 sugar free fudgescile

1 sugar free popsicle

2 cups of chicken broth

 

alittle harder but i managed to end the day right

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Day 1 of my pre-op liquid diet meal plan

May 05, 2016

Breakfast  8AM

  • Giant protein shake ( 140 calories)
  • coffee with milk and equal sugar

water in between

Snack 11AM

  • sugar free jello

water in between

Lunch 12:30PM

  • 1 cup of beef broth ( 15 calories)
  • 1 diet ginger Ale (0 calories)

 

Snack 3PM

  • Protein shake (140)

water in between

Dinner 6PM

  • Benifiber (15 calories) | 2 tums
  • 1 sugar free fudgescile
  • 1 cup of broth chicken

Snack 8PM

  • Sugar free popsicle ( 15 calories)

 

 

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10/2013- my" realization, it's time for a change " photo
300lbs
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