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Well, short and brief....another day down...and another 1.6 pounds gone, which inspires me. I started today with 1/2 a cup shredded wheat, once slice 45 calorie whole wheat bread plain and half a cup OJ. Not my typical fare, but just fine!

Also, not snacking throughout the day is hard!!!!

But, I am DOING IT, and I tell ya, it feels darn good!

My new motto...YES I CAN!!!!

Well, I made it through the first day of less food. Not fun I tell  ya, but I did it...and it was great to see the scale down this am...it put me in a lower weight range. I will admit though, today seems tougher as I am much more tired.....but this too shall pass.

Jodi the insurance gal is actively working on my case...she is awesome.

Hopefully, if all is meant to be....it will be.

Tomorrow begins day 1 of the new restricted eating...I had a few of my favorites last week....kind of a purging if you will, but I feel ready, and motivated. I have shared with my key people what is going on, and what I am doing....so they are in my corner and ready to keep my chin up, even in the darkest times. I am actually excited to get this party started!! I have made my goals, took my before shots (THAT WAS NOOOOOO FUN.....) and have some after shots ready to go from back in my day when I was fit and happy. I can't wait to be that woman again. She is trapped in this large shell ready to bust out....

I also did measurments...also not fun, but in the end, it will all pay off.
I am excited for the pounds to start coming off so I can start moving this body again...feel ENERGY! I am really looking forward to that.

So, to start my joureny I wrote the following......
 

Funeral to Food

The time has come to say goodbye

You’ve been my lifelong friend

We’ve helped each other through ups and downs

Oh the joy and laughter our journey has been

But alas I find that with all good things, there is a dark side too

Too much enjoyment between you and I has led to more of me, now less of you.

So with a heavy heart (and heavy thighs) It is time to bid adu’,

But know good friend there will always be a special place in my heart for you.

(just no longer on my thighs!!!)

 Let the fun begin!

Hi All - I am new to posting on the board. I have been reading for some time, just never ready to join in. I had my dr. appointment on Monday. Went very well. He said I am (again) a great candidate for this procedure. I say again because we went through this once before 3 years ago, but my insurance turned down the LAP, but said yes to the Gastric. I was not up for it at  that time....not long after that, my sister had the Gastric. She nearly lost her life to complications (NOT common)...and so I was once again VERY scared...but now I know this is the right choice for me...(and my sister is a ROCK STAR ...not literally, but with sucess, and doing magnificently)...she doesn't ever seem to regret her choice, even WITH her complications. My insurance now accept the LAP band!!! So, they are working on getting me approved again. God willing (please pray hard) all will come together. The insurance gal in the doc's office predicted surgery would be in April. WOW!!! I start the pre-diet next week.

I will admit though that I am very scared, for SOOO many reasons....I am fearful of surgery...complications....do I deserve to take chances like this while I am a mother and have obligations to fulfill???? But I do realize I can't be a good (or the GREATEST EVER) mother if I am not healthy...which again, is partly the WHY...I want to be a part of their lives...and my grandchildren's lives some day. I won't be around to do that if my health is not in order.

I am ready, but I know I need a support team....Just as it takes a villiage to raise a child, it takes a COUNTRY to help ME!!!! =-)

Any advice or thoughts is greatly appreciated.

Just to let you know - my motivation for the surgery -

BETTER OVERALL HEALTH
-Currently I suffer from Barrett's (an elevated form of reflux). I am told this surgery can assist in making this better. (OR WORSE...depending on the luck of the draw!!)

BECOMING INVOLVED IN MY LIFE!!!
 -I watch from the sidelines...it is sad and lonely....I have far too much to be grateful for, and I want to take part in it and BE here for it all, for a very long time.

BE PROUD OF MYSELF
What more is there to say. And once I accomplish this, I will even be more proud in how my children/husband feel about me.

ENJOY THINGS OTHER THAN FOOD!!!!
I want to develope a healthy and NATURAL relationship with food. I wouldn't let a HUMAN treat me the way food does, so why do I let FOOD?????

JUST BE OVERALL, ME!!!!
Not who I feel like I am trapped inside this body...but get a chance to SHINE.
(does this make any sense???)'

Thank you for allowing the long post. Small glimpse into me.
Look forwarding to getting to know you all!!!