Feeling fat!

Nov 14, 2011

It's been a while since I last posted here, so I thought I'd go back to write and see if I can find some encouragement from my people who understands exactly how I feel.....So my weight is not changing no matter what I do.  I'm still fluctuating between 3-5 lbs - 155 - 160! :(  I've resolved that I will not lose anymore weight since it's been about a year that I've been here at the same weight.

I started getting depressed on yesterday as I was getting ready for church.  When I put on my clothes, although they are size 6 or 8 I still felt fat.  I went through 4 suits before I found one that was OK to wear, but it was a size 10 and I got mad because it was too loose!  I felt like my stomach is huge, everyone can see my rolls and that I looked fat! :(  I managed to cheer up myself by putting on some sexy red heels, which worked for a little while. 

My family and friends constantly tell me I look great, but I don't see it.  It's weird how I can be 155 lbs and still feel like that 227 lb lady....I don't understand what it is.  Am I tripping, do anyone else feel this way occassionally?  Some days, I think and feel GREAT, but a lot of times, I feel FAT!  It's weird....I can look in a full length mirror and see that I'm smaller and look pretty good, but I don't FEEL it, what's the deal????

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