Through it all I am still BLESSED!

May 13, 2009

May 13, 2009

Greetings to all,
It has been a long time since I have had the pleasure to check on everyone but I have been so busy and life has changed! As most of you know I was pregnant and because of the pregnancy I was unable to have lap band surgery. Well, on February 16, 2009 I had a beautiful baby girl (DaShawna Jennae) who weighed 6lbs. 5Oz's.! Dashawna was born still born and therefore did not have the pleasure to make it into this world. I was so devastated and shocked but I also know that God does everything for a reason. See, we feel as if we know what our life should hold but God is the one that determines the direction and paths we should take. Although having a baby girl was a goal for me and my husband, God felt as though the time was not right.

But through this tragedy, I am still blessed. You might ask how...well during this time I had the opportunity to learn exactly what life mean and how important it is to live a healthily life. During my pregnancy I struggled with diabetes that ultimately led to my daughter's death but now I know how important it is to watch what you eat and how much you eat. Not only did I loose my child but I also lost a job that meant the world to me but how many of you know that the same God that blessed you with that job will bless you with a better job. I was out of work for almost six months with this pregnancy and therefore the company I worked for needed to fill my position. In a round about way I am glad they did because this experience has taught me how to trust God and God alone. I have been broke, busted and disgusted but I have never been without food or a roof over my head. That is a TRUE blessing. We take the little things for granted but I now count it all joy!!! I also realized what a good husband really mean...during my entire pregnancy he waited on me hand and foot. He took care of me with great compassion and care. I am THANKFUL. The loss of our daughter has brought us so much closer together and I thought we were already as close as it gets but see how God works...he showed me that we can be even closer and we can love each other more. I have enjoyed this time to bond with him because I have saw a side of him I never saw in ALL the years we have been together. Trust me when I say God is good!!!

Our son, Jachaei, took the death of our daughter hard as well but he also has been such a blessing to me. Each day I look at him I am reminded of how God blessed me almost twelve years ago with a beautiful son. I love him even more and please take the time to tell your children how much you love them...it means alot to their little hearts.

So, I encourage each and everyone of you to embrace change and learn to accept the things you question because God always have a plan in place for our lives. We may not understand it because we can not see the horizons but live faithfully knowing that God has our BEST interest in mind!!!

I love each and every one of you and please keep me and my family in your prayers!!!! Shirley Ann