Sydney R.

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I finally started losing weight again! Hurray for me! LOL  I did ask my Dr about it (as mentioned in the blog before) and he told me it was normal and not to worry.... which I did anyway. I fretted about every day. I am now waiting for that 1 lb to push me into the 100's and out of the 200's. I am so excited about that! 

I have noticed there are some days where all I want to do is eat, eat, eat. Thank God, I physically can't right now, but I know that I need to get a handle on it before I am at the point where I can eat more. I think I need to return to therapy and talk about food and what it really does mean to me. I am wondering if anyone just 2 months out already wants to eat more than they were supposed to.

I have experienced the foamies. They are disgusting beyond words. Euw. Euw. Euw! Yuck! 

Oh... I almost forgot. Shoes. I can now wear shoes that hurt to wear before, they were too tight. This started about two weeks ago. I also have a pair that I really like that feel like they are going to fall off my feet! I am amazed at that. 

Another thing... I feel like a kid walking around saying, "Look what I can do!" People... LOOK WHAT I CAN DO! I can comfortably cross my legs! Look, I can cross the right leg over the left... I can cross the left leg over the right.. My legs are not sticking out... they sit neatly side by side! Hey! LOOK WHAT I CAN DO!!! (It's the little things that make me happy!)

Well, today is 6 weeks from the date of my surgery.  I have lost 28 lbs and seem to be stuck there. I have had a hard time eating and am forcing myself to try and eat a little more, because I think that may be what is stalling my weight loss. Tomorrow, I see my Dr and will ask him about it. 

I can already see a big difference from where I was before, my face has slimmed down a bit and my clothes are loose. I can even wear some tops that I could not fit into for a few years.

Okay... here I go.  

I just found out today that my surgery was approved. I was surprised at my reaction.  I made the lady who gave me the approval repeat it and than I repeated it back.  I wasn't thrilled, like I thought I would be.

I Kept thinking, "This is real?  It is really happening."  I was so afraid that I wasn't going to get it, that when I did it came as a shock. 

I still want to go forward with it though. 

My friends and family seemed happier than I did! How does that happen? I had to convince some of them and now they are more for it than I am! LOL
Maybe, that is what friends and family are for. 

Now, I just have to wait for the date of the surgery..... scarey scarey... 

This Monday, I completed my last step and saw the psychiatrist. Everything so far looks good and I am told my request for surgery will be submitted next week. 

I have Blue Cross/HMO.

When I weighed in at the Drs. office, I weighed 231 and that put my BMI just below 140.  I am in good health and am worried I may not get approved because of it.  Is there anyone out there who can relate? My family history is awful though, (ready "my story" if you are interested) and I find myself wondering how much that is taken into consideration. Does anyone know?

Man! I hate the waiting game!  

If you pray, please remember me in your prayers.