Takerslove
Post-op Appointment and First Vomiting
Feb 25, 2011
Today was a lot of first for me.
I went to the Dr's for my post op and be cleared to get back to work (which I can't till March 14th). First the NUT which was crazy asking me how did the first month go making me already in tears before I even get to the office. Then she tells me that everything is okay and I am eating more then what I think. She also said that I need to just take the diet slow and if I am not on track (like if I need to take the pureed a bit longer instead of moving to soft that) that is fine. I don't think it is since I am a very it has to be like this and this by this time.
So, I am already upset and she puts me in the waiting room and have me just waiting and I was crying. I mean balling in the room Marco having his arm around me as I continue to say I hate this surgery this was horrible why did it do it. Don't worry they made sure they left the other two people sit there long enough to know what I was talking about. Marco kept trying to point out that the girl was nice and was seam to know what she is talking about... not like the other one they have there. It didn't matter to me I felt like shit.
Finally they pull me in for the doctor and of course more questions that make me cry and upset. I finally see the doctor and he says that I am doing great he is happy with me and so on and so on. I tell him your menu says I should be eating ½ cup and I am not eating that much and I feel like I am forcing food down because I don't meet his standers. He tells me it is the program fault that I am trying to follow the rules, but the rules should be used as a guide not to take them word for word. Then he talks about the pain I have in the breast bone area. He says that it could be that I am swollen and that in time it will just go away, but I have to remember to chew a lot and make sure when I am full that I call it quits and not get upset. He keeps pointing out that everything I feel is NORMAL and that 3 months down the line things will be better and I will sing a different tune when I come back in here. I personally think he is nuts himself at this point.
I was pretty proud of my self that I honestly told the doctor what is on my mind and that I am honestly having issues. Do I think he is going to listen to me? Not really... but what can I say at least I spoke up. He even kept telling me down the hall I am fine that I am doing good. Maybe I am just not good at my standers since I am always harder on my self.
Tonight for dinner I had some hard boil egg salad with ham and light mayo. Normally the egg and mayo go well with me so added some ham I thought it would be okay since after all it is all pureed yet. Nope about 1 ½ hours later I vomiting the first time I have done in years. I was crying and saying how much I hate this surgery and its sucks. My father stood there watching me, but did little to calm my tears down.
Needless to say I am not feeling well at all right now and still have to take my night time medication. Yikes!
