05-13-09

May 13, 2009

Well I haven't been on in awhile. Its been a crazy time in my life. I have gained alot of weight. I haven't weighed myself as of lately. But the last time I weighed I was at 305 lbs. And I know I am more since then. I don't know where to start to lose the weight. And I think its affecting my heart again. So I have to seriously find out what to do. My 4 year anniversary is in July. And I feel like a failure. I have been trying to get pregnant. I was on clomid for 4 or 5 rounds. And I didn't get pregnant that way.  So I was supposed to go in and do the IUI ( I think that what it was) I had started the clomid round and had called to schedule the procedure and the doctor's nurse told me he wasn't going to do it. He wants to send me to another docotor but he didn't tell me why. It broke my heart but I tried to stay positive and schedule the appt and was ready to go but my husband's job didn't let him off in time. So now I have to wait and reschedule again. I've just been down and frustrated. And it seems like I can't get ahead. If anyone has any advice on getting back on track I would greatly appreciate it. Hopefully I will get back to being happy again.

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