Lisa A.
I have been overweight my entire life. I have tried every diet under the sun since the age of 11. I am now 31 and weigh over 400 pounds. I desperately want to have children ASAP, but obviously need to lose weight first(easier said than done). I am with the man of my dreams who is very supportive. I am ready to start a family and need serious help to achieve a massive weight loss of over 200 pounds. I don't expect to be skinny, never have been never will be, but I'd be happy with 150-199 pounds. I'm pretty stressed out about my age and my biological clock running overtime. I seriously need to lose weight for my mental and physical health as well. I am on way to many meds for someone my age. I've considered weight loss surgery in the past but was too afraid. I had a fear of dying on the table. That all changed on JANUARY 25, 2006. I was a pedestrian who was hit by a car!!! Like really who gets hit by a car!!! How the driver didn't see me is beyond me, I'm pretty out there in size!!! Anywho... I suffered a fractured patella and a tibial plateau fracture. I spent 2 weeks in hospital and 5 months in a hospital bed in the middle of my living room unable to walk.Through all my depression and self pity I woke up one day and thought what the hell am I complaining about?? It could have been way worse... I could have had head injuries or worse yet been killed. But I wasn't...and I survived the 4 hour surgery to fix my leg. Suddenley all my fears of WLS sugery were gone. I was like if I can survive being hit by a car a can do anything!! I also had huge fears of childbirth, even though I want tons of kids, but now that fear is gone to. Now nearly one year after my accident have learned how to walk again and I am determined to make a better life for myself! All my life people have told me that I had a pretty face, but I could never see it over my weight. I find myself to be repulsive to be quite frank! You'd think 31 years of being fat Id be used to it by now but I never will be, I hate it. I used to pretend that it didn't bother me but how the hell could it not?!?! Guys in high school wanted nothing to do with me, other than a friend. I didnt have my first real boyfriend until I was 18. I stayed with that jerk for 7 long unhappy years becasue I settled. I figured that no one else would ever want me. I used to walk around wth my head down and anytime I would hear people laughing I always just assumed that t was at me. When I broke up with my BF I felt a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders (too bad not off my body too haha), I just knew I could never be happy with him. The year we broke up I came out of my shell, I became more social and walked aroud with my head up... still no self esteem but proud of myself for leaving that loser!! I started noticing that there were some guys out there that would look my way... without laughing that is!!! So I relived my teenage years at the age of 25 and got in all the dating that I had missed out on. Finally I met the guy of my dreams!! Never have I been with someone who loves and appreciates me for who I am!! We have been together now for over 5 years!!! One day soon I hope to get married and start a family... but first I want to feel good about myself and finally do something for myself...hence WLS!!!
Wow that was really long !! I think that was just a therapy session for me getting that all out lol and I didn't even have to pay!!! lol
