Tanya B.
Just saying hi
May 01, 2024
Not sure if anyone is still around. I am about 16 years post op. Never made it to my goal weight of 150. I have stayed consistently between low 160's and 170's. Seems to be my sweet spot. No complaints. Far cry from 265 (pre op). Well if anyone is still around. Say hi. ????????
Stilll here
Mar 07, 2012
2 yr surgiversary
Sep 29, 2009
WOW.....2 years post op. I still can not believe how much I have changed in 2 short years. It seems like only yesterday I was on that blasted liquid diet. I am incredibly thankful to GOD first and foremost. It is through him all things are possible. I am not on this beautiful journey called life through my own power. HE has shown me the way and through him anything is possible.
In 2 yrs I have lost 100 lbs and am maintaing beautifully. I look at pictures of the "old" me and think wow...... was that really Tanya? Look at how far I have come. I like to read my old post from the last 2 yrs. They were extremely personal and very uncharachteristic of me to write such personal thoughts and experiences for others to read. But for my journey to be complete and full, I need to share. Over the last 2 yrs I have had some good days and some bad days...but overall I must admit to feeling very blessed for each experience. There were lessons I have needed to learn along the way. There were experiences that I have needed to feel and go thru. No, these lessons were not all easy, some were down right painful, but I am a stronger person as a result of this life. I have no regrets. My life is full and chaotic, and loving and blessed, and funny and at times tiring....but this is my life. THANK YOU.
I want to say thank you to Brianna and Joshua, my loving children. They have given me strength whenever I did not feel like I had enough. They have provided wonderful comic relief along the way. Mommy loves you. Who else can make me laugh at myself?
I also want to say a special thank you to my parents and my brother. Their constant love has been inspiring. I hope that I am building as 1/2 as strong of a family as you have all shown me everyday of my existence. I love you.
Relationships and other new woes
Nov 27, 2008
I have had 2 failed relationships over the last year. With the last one ending very unexpectantly recently. I believe that I thought if I lost weight then guys would be more open to me, not just see me as a "fat chick" and that my options would not be limited to just the guys who are chubby chasers. The problem is that my mind has not changed as quickly as my body has. I still feel like a big girl. I still see all the imperfections of my body. I still feel lonely and vunerable at times. I seem to gravitate toward relationships very quickly, which troubles me tremendously. Why can I not be happy in my own skin? Why can I not be happy with all of the blessings that God has bestowed upon me? Why can I not love myself unconditionally all the time? How can I expect to maintain a healthy and nurturing relationship with this set of new "issues" floating around in my head? I learned to adapt and live my life as a "fat girl" for all of my adult lie......but this reality is so different. I dont know how to master this new life yet. But God willing, I will one day.
1 year surgiversary
Sep 19, 2008
My body, mind and spirit are so much healthier today. I love my life. I love being an active participant in my life as well......no longer sitting on the sidelines waiting for "something' to happen. Now, I make my own way. I live, laugh and love. I am so blessed to be surrounded by people who love and cherish me. I feel that I have so much to give and to teach others. I want the world, and truly believe I will have it.
In the last 12 months I have transformed how I eat, how much I eat, how my body processes the food I do eat. I have strengthened my bond with my children. I have graduated college and now have a Master's degree in a field that I love. I have been an inspiration to others to seek alternative methods in fighting a fight they have been fighting for a lifetime. I have met the love of my life and am looking forward to seeing our relationship blossom. My career is on fire and so is my sex life!!!!!!! LOL!
No, seriously. Thank you Dr. Bonanni for giving me a tool to change my life. Thank you God for stearing me in the right direction to find Dr. B. and for healing my body and spirit. Thank you Brianna and Joshua for being patient with mommy during this often bumpy road and for blessing me with the gift of motherhood. Thank you Mom and Dad for believing in me and supporting me nonstop my entire life. It is through you two that I have learned what unconditional love means. Thank you Kevin (my brother) for being the best big brother a girl can ask for. Thank you Paul (my other brother) even though you are no longer physically with us in this world, I have felt your presence and love everyday since you left. And thank you Kevin (my love) for helping to restore my faith and love for myself. You have taught me many valuable lessons in our short time together. You are a lesson in love for me. Thank you baby.
9 months and counting
Jun 29, 2008
I am also dating regularly now The last relationship didnt work but I have had no problem moving on. I am now seeing someone new and having the time of my life. I am working so hard to learn and maintain a positive self image and to put out nothing but positive energy into the universe. I pray that we all will receive many blessings in return.
Happy trails everyone.
Luv ya.
7 months and counting
Apr 26, 2008
I hope everyone is doing as fabulous as I feel these days. It's been 7 months on this wonderful journey towards the new and improved Tanya. I am not losing as many pounds these days, but I am very happy with my progress. I weigh in around 175 lbs, wearing sizes 12's and 14's. I have finally purged my closet of all my old clothes. Nothing looked good on me any more. I have only been slowly buying new clothes since I was losing so quickly. Now I am desparately in need of a new wardrobe. The funny thing is the clothes I do buy my 12 y.o. daughter keeps taking them. We argue all the time about her in my clothes and me trying on her's. These are some truly interesting days in the Bing household! MNy poor 10 y.o. son just looks at us and shakes his head as he walks away.
I went for my 6 month appt. last month and was told that my potassium is slightly low. I don't have to take supplements yet, but I am trying to increase my intake of some potassium rich foods. Also my B-12 was low. So I have added that to my vitamin intake these days. All in all I am doing pretty damn well.
I want to take more pics and upload...will try and do that soon. So happy trails to everyone........Catch u later!
5 month update
Mar 04, 2008
I eat pretty much whatever I want. I get full very easily, but definitely eat normal portion sizes. I still have occasional issues with carbs (gas). I have also a low tolerance for alcohol. I am a cheap drunk these days.
I am looking at making plans for summer vacation with my family right now. I am majorly looking forward to this. I have always wanted to go horseback riding and plan on doing this very soon. I have always been to fat to get on a horse, but not anymore. Time to start conquering my "To Do Lists" now that the weight is just falling off.
Still having issues with taking my vitamins. I am just one stubborn girl. I have my 6 month doctor appt on the 21st of March. My labs should be interesting. Will post more after my appt.
As for goals, I still want to lose another 40-60 pounds. From there it's just exercising, toning, strength training. I am a force to be reckoned with these days!
MY DS ROCKS!
3 month update
Dec 18, 2007
The physical changes to my body have been truly surprising. My skin has made the biggest change. My face is clearer than it has been in years, I went through some major skin rashes and itchy-ness immediately post op for at least 6 weeks. My skin had dry patches all over the lower half of my body, but even that is gone now. Another change as of recent is my skin color is a shade lighter then it once was. I plan on asking the doc on Thursday about that one. Don't believe there are any problems but just want to know.
My hair is definitely going through the shedding process. Much thinner in some areas, and some mild breakage. Not worrying about it though cause it's just temporary.
The biggest challenge today is getting in vitamins, but I am trying much harder with that today as well.
Will post more after Thursday.
Later.......
2 month update
Nov 29, 2007
Now for the "other" stuff. The gas is better, I do have more frequest bowel movements, but not too bad. I can definitely tell when I have eaten ehough and need to stop cause it's pretty ugly if I even try to eat more than I should.
The vitamins.....I honestly truly struggle with getting my vitamins in. Somedays I forget them at home, or I take the morning pills and forget the evening pills. It would help considerably if I could take the pills all in one shot.. I plan on asking the dietitian about this next month. But somehow I know the answer will be NO. I hate taking them....that is what it comes down to for me. I know that this is just a stubborness on my side, but I don't like it. I do know that the vitamins will save my life, so I need to just get over it...... and I am sure I will. Especially since I have written this for the world to see..... have no choice now.
Later,
TB