*Need Advice* from Vets on Body Image
But I still feel so fat.
I can't see the difference in the mirror.
I know on some logical level that I am wearing much smaller clothes and I know my face is thinner, but I can't see the loss. I have gone from a size 26/28 to a 16/18. Ten dress sizes! But I feel the same. I don't feel like I have lost a pound.
So those of you who have lost a lot or reached goal -- how long did it take for your mind to catch up with your body?
I know I am not the only one with this problem.
Does it get better? How do I get past this strange thinking?
Please comment because I am really at a loss here.
Sorry I don't have a good answer for you.
A lot of what we SEE is dictated by the mind. But the mind processes change at its own pace. This explains why, as we grow as humans from infants to children, the changes seem very subtle when to others who don't see us as often they seem very rapid.
When we lose weight very rapidly, the brain is slow to catch up. Not only that, but what we SEE is, in part, also dictated by what we believe. And THAT can be affected by a number of things.
I can look fat to myself in the mirror on any of the following premises:
-I am wearing an outfit I don't like
-I ate something I should not have
-I saw someone who said something that hurt my feelings
-I did not achieve a goal
-I have suffered a loss
-I see a picture of Beyonce
I threw that last one in there because our perception of what beauty is, or should be, also heavily affects how we see ourselves.
This is why I say, ad nauseum, that the story we tell ourselves is important.
Bottom line: it takes a while for the brain to catch up and allow our eyes to see what others have seen all along. Some say years. My prayer is that most of us don't "miss it." What I mean by that is that because some of us don't BELIEVE we've changed we behave as if we haven't, experience regain and then when we CAN see what others saw, we are no longer that way.
My advice? Embrace what you know to be true and enjoy the new possibilities your life has to offer. Don't concentrate on any particular standard of beauty. Focus on the cute clothes YOU can now wear, not whether you look like Victoria Beckham in them. Focus on the new things YOU can do. Not what your trainer, sister, brother, mother can do. Concentrate on the medicines you no longer take or the ridicule that you no longer get or WHATEVER it is that you used to deal with that you no longer have to deal with.
In short: if you've ever said, "I love my RNY!" focus on WHY you said that. The rest will come in time.
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I am five years out plus and I still have to deal with my fat head all the time. It may be a struggle for the rest of your life so keep the clothes to give you perspective now and again.
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HW:290 LW:139 RW: 167 CW: 139
I see photos of myself...and remember how I never felt THAT FAT. But I was ugly and disgustingly fat. I am 5'3" so at 222(pre surgery)I was round.
I still would dish a 'normal' plate if I am somewhere....and end up having a few bites and leaving the rest. I do like buffets for that reason. I can get protein...and pick and choose. I have gotten over the 'payiing for that' meal and either take it home or leave it.
I never drank the protein shakes....I gag and I just couldn't get them down. I would sometimes add unflavored protein powder to soup or juices but otherwise I just could not.
Make sure to get rid of the FAT CLOTHES. I have nothing left....even 14 and 12's are too big. I shop at 2nd hand stores....it's been great. I know I look awesome...but have to make sure my stomach tells my hand, mouth and brain to stop when full.
Leave a positive self talk message on your mirror....You are doing wonderful...KEEP IT UP!
Dave Chambers, 6'3" tall, 365 before RNY, 185 low, 200 currently. My profile page: product reviews, tips for your journey, hi protein snacks, hi potency delicious green tea, and personal web site.
I also was told by my counselor (who is a body image specialist) that massage is great for body image. I had told him I felt like I had phantom fat--like there was still belly protruding farther than it was and he said the massage helps us truly feel where our bodies stop and start. Interesting concept, but a little rich for my blood. Granted, I'd think having a loved one (husband, boyfriend, best friend) do it may be of some benefit.
I hope you find your way to feeling and seeing your success. It SUCKS to still feel fat--I know from experience. And I don't think it is strange thinking, just for the record. Perhaps taking away the negative thoughts about your thoughts would be a good first step.
Good luck!
Denise
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RNY 2/3/09, LBL/BL w/Augmentation 9/16/11
Start weight: 335 Current weight: 185 Goal weight: Whatever the hell I can maintain without driving myself insane!