Day 26

Friday will be 4weeks out. Today I felt defeated, I let my emotions win I suppose. Went to work, after work I was so exhausted I could not get out of that car fast enough. I've been walking daily, today I thought I'd rest and then go. So I laid down and bam I was out. From around 5pm to 930pm. Then once I woke up all I want to do is cry. I feel so sick of myself. I've got my mom all worried. She is worried I'm depressed, and well today I am. This journey is so emotional. They try to warn you but there just isn't the right words to really warn you, or maybe we just can't comprehend it until it's happening. I hate that I slept my afternoon away. Maybe my body needed that? Or maybe I just totally had a failed day 26.

You are only 4weeks post op, so your body is still healing. Your body just needed to rest. It took me 6 weeks to feel normal again and During this 6 weeks I rest a lot. It is a very emotional journey, so just go with it and do not be so tough on yourself. 

I'm 4 weeks out and I still need a nap every day. I just get so tired. Your body is telling you something. Listen and give yourself permission to heal. This is our lifelong journey, not a quick race. We're bound to have our good and not so good days, just like pre surgery. Take care!!