anyone in fear of gainng weight?

Lately i am afraid to eat cause im in fear of gaining weight.  When my doctor weighs me i am scared to know if i gained or not. If the scale shows i gained A pound im depressed and feel guilty.  I have recently started to look at calories and everyhing. i look at myself in the mirror and think im fat but others have told me im crazy.  Today i had pretezles,cheese and some chicken. i feel ive ate too much today but others have said no. I have lost 115 pounds in 9 months and am very scared to gain it back...... please Whats wrong with me?

You are scared of failure.But keep doing what you are doing.Eating healthy reading labels. You know what works.

You need to see a therapist - this has the potential to become an eating disorder if not tackled early.

I know you are a post and runner (never reply) but I hope you will at least read some of the advice you get to this and other questions you post!

Then you havent been following me to well. I do reply, and I take everyone's opionions in consideration.

Are you talking with a therapist at all?  These are the sorts of thought patterns I can see myself falling into, so I'm working on finding a therapist to help me out now.  

No I havent talked to one.

That might be a good place to start!  A call to your insurance company will help you figure out your benefits and find a therapist.  

I sometimes get that fear. It even pops up in my dreams. My journey has been so easy and I keep thinking it will all be over soon and it freaks me out. Sometimes I can't even feel happy when someone compliment s me. 

 

 

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I know what you're going thru. My mind plays all kinds of tricks on me. Especially as I am now getting close to goal and will have to deal with maintenance. I do much better having goals, something I am working toward, than just maintaining. I also had a regain with my lap band so I know it can happen. I don't think that there is anything wrong with you, but like another poster, it could lead to eating disorder thinking and acting, and if you feel you need to talk thru it, maybe a therapist could help. I don't think you are alone so it was good to see you posting about your fears. I wish you all the best as we all have demons we have to fight.

You should track your calories. Set a goal for your caloric intake and stick with it -- then you know you aren't eating too much.  The nutritionist should have guidelines for you.  You SHOULD be looking at the calories in everything. That is not a bad thing, it is a good thing.  Your brain will take time to catch up to the mirror.  It sounds like you do not have an eating plan.  If you plan to eat you won't keep guessing and you will keep losing or maintaining.