The indoor water park

I am writing this from an indoor water park and it is very thought provoking. As usual, I have been people watching, and I catch myself being more curious about the thin people than I do the heavy ones.All day, I was wondering who I looked like. Hubby isn't with me, and so I had nobody to ask, but I still watched.

I will say I find it harder to parade around in my bathing suit now than I did 90+ lbs ago, and I am processing through this. As near as I have come to figuring it out is that it is because I am being self conscious of my flab on my upper legs and my saggy butt, which, if I am brutally honest, is unsightly but not that bad. I'm being much harder on myself than I probably need to be.

I will file this under "living life as a normie" and the fact that even as we approach/reach goal all of our worries will not magically go away.

All thoughts welcomed.

Laurie

This is something I've already worried about for the coming summer.  My skin is saggy and lumpy and I told a friend recently, that I'll probably  be thin and still wearing a skirt to cover up with.  Just remember you're the only one who is aware of it and you'll never see these people again!  Have fun.

Brandy

I'm still pre op, but I've been catching myself wondering what my body will look like in the months to come. Being a normal weight is such a foreign concept to me. Before I came here to read tonight, I caught myself staring in the mirror. I had gotten undressed and didn't even realize I was tracing my stretch marks with my fingertips. I also didn't realize how much of my was actually covered in them. I know my body will change in many ways, I just hope I can get over the mental hurdle of accepting me in my own skin. For years I wore shirts over my bathing suits, sleeves, and long dresses. I just want the freedom to wear what I want and love myself in it. But I know it's only me that is preventing this from happening.