Check up day and a great weekend!

Jul 03, 2012

So today was my check up..9 months out,106 lbs down and 58% of my excess weight lost! My doctor was so excited and proud of me. I for once am proud of me! I really feel so much better and I'm amazed at what each new day brings.
 The cherry on top of my cake was getting to see my childhood friend Jerry on Sunday! We hadn't seen each other in 18 years. We met up at the Braves game and I realized it was a great day for so many more reasons that just seeing an old friend. A year ago I never would have been able to enjoy myself and walk like I did Sunday. Instead of feeling defeated against stairs,I climbed and skipped them. Instead of thinking people were looking at me because I was fat,I questioned, "Did that guy really just check me out?" Instead of feeling ashamed,I felt proud. Another awesome thing was a Chevrolet vendor was giving out free tshirts..I use to only wish I could wear those shirts. Well,guess what? My shirt was TOO BIG! I wore it to work yesterday..and I was like dang this is awesome :)
 I realized how much of my life I had let slip by me. I had an opportunity to see old friends and would weasel my way out of fear. I was afraid of what they'd think of me,afraid I wouldn't be able to literally fit in somewhere,get embarassed,lose my breath or not be able to participate in what was planned. I have always preached that life was to short to let things pass you by,but yet I let my own insecurities overshadow my life. A few years ago I could have met up with my friend while I was on vacation and as much as I wanted to..I didn't. I didn't want him to see what I'd become. I am sorry and sad to admit that,but it's true. I am just glad I got another chance. He was still the same sweet friend I knew as a kid..the same person who was my friend when I was fat and although it was as if we picked up where we left off,I was glad to introduce him to the new me :) It was great to introduce him to my husband and son, and I can't wait to introduce him to my other two kids. I REFUSE to let my life pass me by anymore. I will live my life to the fullest..bat wings and all ;) ~Arlyn♥

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