Gotta do ol'skool for now...

Jan 04, 2010

So one of my goals was to ride a rollercoaster. I must say I may not be at Six Flags, but a rollercoaster I am on. I am really confused and not sure anymore. I dont think that I will be getting surgery anymore since the job loss I am now broke. The copays are killing me. I went for the sleep test and got my portion in the mail, I almost passed out. I am so close but yet so far away. My closest friends are offering there support as much as they can and my father is claiming maybe its not in Gods will.  I dont know I am just lost. Emotionally I am trying to do the right thing, mentally I am just flustered, finacially I am just done. Please if you read this whether it the day I right it or 5 months from now, please know that I welcome your encouragement.

On another note I am back in the gym and feeling really good I have been doing everything I can to stay away from the pies and cookies all season and even portioned throughout the holidays. My goal is to be down 40lbs by April & 90lbs by September. If I cant get the surgery I am gonna do it the old fashioned way. At this point nothing can stop me. I have never been so determined in my LIFE!!!

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