Surprised I want to keep surgery secret

May 29, 2014

So this is not my first blog post. I had an account here and have found OH very helpful in terms of preparing for my July 10th VSG. When I created the account I used my real name, and I was convinced I was going to be very open about my surgery and tell everyone - friends, family, coworkers. The only exception is that I was going to tell my parents after the fact. But as my surgery gets closer and seems more real I am surprised that I am having second thoughts.  I am not sure I want everyone to know. My own hangup is that I am afraid someone who knew me when I was thin and never knew I gained weight will find out that I had to have surgery. I googled myself and got upset when I saw my OH posts. That's f***ed up! Since when have I really cared about what other people think?  As a self-pay patient I didn't have to have a pre-op psych eval but I've contacted a therapist anyway and start going next week to "get my mind right" (as my funny husband would say). Doing my best to keep focused on the positive result!

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