herestolife
Wow It has been forever
Dec 01, 2010
I know it has been a while since I have been on here... but my life just sort of got out of control. But now I want it back so "back on the horse" as everyone seems to keep telling me. I went through a rough patch with my husband, we have been fighting alot, he has been drinking more that he used to and all of it just piled up to make me a miserable person.... I lost sight of what I wanted and where I was going in my life. One thing I'd like to say to anyone that is in the position of a spouse trying to support their loved one through a journey like this is that it is not ok to during an argument tell the person that you love that the reason that you do something, like drink or ignore them or walk two steps behind them when out in public, DON'T ever tell them that it is dew to them being fat and that you are embarrassed to be seen with them...... I tell you this was the worst think to hear from the man I adore and would do anything for in life.... And it has made me try to loose the weight in all the wrong ways.... yes I have lost 7 pounds in just 8 days and I know that this is not a good way to do this but I figure that maybe he will see it and then he will love me enough???? Why do I do this to myself? Why is it not enough to just love myself? Oh wait that is the problem I don't love myself....... How do I make that a priority? If any one can help me to get through this and maybe find peace well I'm open to any friendship I can get. Thanks!!!
