And now on to bathing suits, but with a better mindset

Mar 06, 2012

Ok, so I'm looking for a bathing suit, and I'm trying bathing suits on right and left. They ALL look horrible. I have lost weight, but I have not lost excess skin, bagginess, or any of the cellulite in my legs. So I breathe. I focus. I Look at what i've been picking up, and I realize, these are bathing suits for people who look good naked. They're fully fitted, they're two piece or very unforgiving one-pieces. They have all the wrong gathers, they have all the wrong reveals for my body. I'm trying on suits for after I have plastic surgery.

So I go find the style of bathing suit I wore before. Its conservative, a princess cut swimdress, black with tiny silver pinpoint polka dots. I try it on, but in a size that is literally 10 numbers lower than I wore before. (22preop, 12 now)
And I realize I look awesome. Not tolerable. Not 'good enought that I don't have to be embarrassed'. I feel like I WANT to be seen in this. Its not a bikini, a tankini, or even a standard one-piece. Its still a swimdress. But oh my god how much better I look in them now.

I have to be content with smaller steps. I'll get there, and I need to recognize the progress I've made. As another poster I admire so recently put it, Rome wasn't built in a day. I need to take it easy. I'm getting there, and I'm gonna do it in style.

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