Brandi.
Waiting to let go...
Apr 29, 2009
OK so the whole being obsessed with weighting my self has totally messed with my mind. I did find the strength to leave it for almost a week and not step on a scale. Its mainly because I'm back from visiting my sister and I don't have a scale at home. But I was at the gym the other day and got on, just to take a peek it had been six days after all. Well I haven't lost a pound, not even an ounce. If I didn't think I was nuts before, I surely do now. I instantly started to panic and wondered why, my goodness I can't be consuming more than 800 calories a day, how the hell could I not lose at least a tiny little pound or two. My mind started racing, like saying maybe they didn't actually do the surgery and its some weird kind of experiment or something, then I thought something must be terribly wrong. At this point it may be needless to say, but I do have a pretty vivid imagination. After I took a few deep breaths and brought my self down to reality, which only took a few moments. I realized that this happens. I've spoken to people that have gone through the same thing and my body is probably just holding on to everything it can right now until it realizes that it just doesn't need it. So I'm OK now, and just waiting for my body to let go....Which, I have to be honest, I hope is soon.
